Touch of an Angel

2005-07-06T21:33:00.000+08:00

hihi. hmmm been quite a up person today. felt that i had totally jumble up my priorities. frens and love. one side is good frens who had accompany thru the period of loneliness. one side is someone who i found, who i felt like home, who i felt to live with. although used to felt very flirt, but maybe is cos i duno how to differentiate with wat is frenship and relationship.

then now, i somehow din juggle well. after some while and some words from cindy, jus wan say sth.

mini bro, i'm really sorry. was thinking of giving u and cindy a surprise but luckily i din. if not guess i really bring myself big trouble. good frens are the one who will noe me inside out. i really shouldn't have and 'surprises' for u guys. while we should work out new 'surprises'. i really glad that u 2 are my very good frens in my life. i really shared my heart out with u 2 and there u are consoling me, moulding a new me as the time goes by. although we din noe each other for long, but, the bond, is really something that i dun wan to lose. now that i found someone i really love and care, i too dun wish to lose u 2. while morever to share with u 2. cos my happiness is not credited to me alone. its her and also 2 of u. also glad that u 2 had helped me to change over slowly. from appearance to human relation. the gratitude in me, i can never put it in words. gen bu yong shuo yong shuo de. therefore, here wat i wrote, its truely wat i felt. my words of expression is really bad, but i really hope u will give me the chance to be very good frens with u. i dun wan to lose good frens around me again le. i dun wan to be wat i used to be: in a space of loneliness. to see u angry i also dun feel good. but i noe i cant always make u smile. but deep in me, i still wish u that u will always smile happily as u are really influencial. this time i tio hood super hard liao. i dun mind u hood me again in me but jus hope, we will always be best frens.

lijun, duno will u read this. but jus wan tell u this. although u are busy with ur work, but really after some time, i felt that somehow i drifted away from u. although maybe we still can chat and all, but for me dreams are still dreams. it can never be same as reality. yes i once told u that u are my dream girl. its true. but somehow, jus felt that we jus dun have the chance and fate. i cannot go against will of god. i jus cant push luck. but i really glad that in my life, i've noe u as a fren, a fren who i can share my heart too. wish u too can be my best fren. i pray for u one day, u will meet ur prince charming. believe in urself.

piglet, i decided to write all these here is cos i really wan to get thru all the thinking i got inside me. i noe u noe that i once woo after lijun but to me, now u are my special one. trust me. although we noe each other for only few days, but u really made me feel different. from the 1st time i chat with u, we can chat very well and had much to chat also. but in me, jus felt that i wanted to do something more for u. to care for u. but i noe u and me jus need some time to get to understand each other more. so i'll be waiting for u and be by ur side, jus like my best frens. cos couples are best frens with chemistry and affections right? ^_^ but i really thank god, for making me crossing ur path of life, to meet someone pleasent and caring like u. and also look like 'hebe' de u. hehe =p

finally got all the things in me out. to me, everyone by my side are important. especially to those who shared my joy and sorrows. cos without u all, i will never be moving in life. without u all, my eyes will not open jus to live my life. without u all, i will never be wat i am now and in future. maybe these words i said might be too early, but its me. the hide-less me. i dun wan regret one day that i din say these out to u all. especially my best frens, cindy and mini bro peilin.

2005-07-05T00:36:00.000+08:00

hihi. haha. today was a wonderful day. heh heh. lesson time was as per normal. but it was after sch which was fun. haha. went out with piglet *u noe who u are =p* after sch to walk walk 'tan xin shi' haha. can say we had quite a chatting session ba. the moment we met till we depart, we never stop chatting. haha. its really wonderful to chat with her especially when everything is under the sun. hmm. but do i really sound like i hit off very easily with girls? maybe ba. but i now also trying to find guys de frens. as some time, need to balance out things in life ma. hehe. went to PS. was intending to catch a movie but all was left are the front sitters. so~~ never mind. thanks~~. hahaha.

then went to took some photos and the machine's effect was really nice. hehe * next time patronize that machine le ba* hahaha. think long time no take le * o should say choose the machine to take ba* then a bit mountain tortise ah. haha. but in the end after some 'designing' by us, the pics did came out nice nice. hehe. then went for dinner at the foodcourt and thats the end for today. haha. at 1st was wanting to play but forget today's youth day, arcade FULL HOUSE. haha. super lot o racer ah. no chance to play. hahaha. so bo bianz lo. hehe. hmm. should say today was one of the enjoyable moments i have in my life. can never forget it ^_^ (4 / 7 / 2005)

a special day
where for the first time
i felt a true mix in emotion.
for fate brings me you
for chance brings me her
for time i shall see
will fate seals my destiny
or
will chance befall over me

2005-07-03T00:16:00.000+08:00

wha. today had quite a day too. went to downtown east there for a job application. now have to wait for call for interview. duno will have the job not. then after that went to somerset meet cindy and peilin. soon peilin's bf came and 4 o us went walk walk. then went to this levi's shop and they asked me tried a pair of jeans. haha. very nice la. price also very nice lo. $119. haha. super ex sia. but really very nice. think need to change my waredrobe le ba. haha.

then went fo tang for the huan ying hui. was late but its ok. everything end at 10+. then here i am. end of day le. haha. k la. think nth much le. go off le. see ya.

had you in mind all these while
missing you badly
wonder how are you really doing now?
wish i had more time with you
to see you smile.

2005-06-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

hihi
haha. had been some time since i blogged again. haha. ytd and today had a long day. can say been enjoying although tired ba, but it had been meaningful for ytd.

went to a tour on our origin of the religion, on how it started and how our masters fought to spread the good word in singapore. they had been thru much hardship and is away from home. really touching story on wat they been thru. its sth miraculous and hard to say. then really been 'enlightened' by some things ytd. also duno how been enlighten but feel light today. haha

then today had EIC my so call fave module ba. its when we learn bout ourselves. haha. its always interest me alot. had a short private conversation with the teacher and known sth about relationship and frenship. understand somethings that i think i neglected.

hmm. anyway, jus feel lighted these 2 days. hope everyone also enjoying their life too. life is fun. hope all take care. time will fly for all. ^_^

felt something different in me.
everytime there's only one thing in my mind.
can i realise what i have in my mind?

2005-06-22T00:16:00.000+08:00

when changes are not done well enough, things haven't change for the better
for past we cannot change anymore, for thinking cannot be changed
only the future we can mould, to make ourselves a better life.

had been through some counselling session today with my fren. been thinking that some things i did unknowingly hurt o strained the relationship around me. can see somethings are not the same while some things are changing for the better. had been noeing wat to do but my fren told me that i got to put in more effort. and also somethings if we over do, it might turn out side effect.

if being quiet is something wrong
then can someone please make me speak?
to tarnish people's life and not helping them to stand
its the great sin to create.
i wish i had never do such things in my life
because being tarnished by people is not funny.
for their pride and confidence will be brought down
just like a note shredded into pieces
no matter how you put them together
their pain can never be hidden.

2005-06-17T10:35:00.000+08:00

hi guys. haha. was supposingly to update ytd but fell asleep le. hahaa. totally forget wat i wanted to do. hee. hmm yup. had a very fun day ytd. fun time laughing and playing.

scene: t3a toilet
victim(s): lao zhang, david G., ah lau.
happening:

lao zhang was poo-ing in toilet and all o us decided to play him out. 1stly is splashing water to him. then try sth more exciting. wet toilet paper. haha. almost hit him though. guess in there he dun have a good time poo-ing ba. haha. then my fren asked me to use his hp to take photo of lao zhang poo-ing. so decided to try. but cannot catch his view. hahaha. then here comes david with ah lau's hp. trying to take photo up front of him in the cubical. the moment david raise the hp above the door and going to press the 'capture' button, it was gone. snatched by lao zhang. and there goes ah lau's hp. haha. then they make a big fuss by kicking the door. until the door spoiled O_O spoiled in sense it cannot lock liao. hahaha. then as u guys noe lao zhang haven wash his hands right? therefore it 'dirt' ah lau's hp and so now, is hp is called' the sai hp' hahaha. stupid eh? but had much fun. haha.

then after sch went to help in the interviewing thingy. at t1 there. got ard 20 ppl signing up for mc post. then we decided to play games with them starting from intro game. slowly we plaed more game as time pass by. haha. had much fun playing too. and get to noe more yr1s that din come for the FO activities. haha. was a very fulfilling day. ^_^

2005-06-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

yoyo. finally after sometime, i blogged. haha. hz.. feeling terrible. sick le wor. alot of ppl around me also down le. hz.. so chamz ah. then proj started le. need to think alot and also class. then world start to move fast. tempo starts to build. and also long time no do my fave. racing. hahaha. then club having recruitment drive tml. guess will go there to listen ba. hope things will be alright. may 05/06 be a good yr for cls. ^_^

2005-06-05T23:43:00.000+08:00

yoyo. today morning went to ecp. haha. stupid me overslept. then reach there at 12noon. haha. where they having lunch le. haha. then went to try blading there. still can get a little hand of it. haha skate with yulan who i long time no saw her le. haha. thenwe learn and skate together and keep on on the verge of falling and falling. haha. thinking of trying to blade as a sports but need a long time ba. hehe. then also saw the 'devil' shuting. haha. cos she with her choir juniors from her sec sch de. haha. big group sia. haha.

then night went to clementi de party world ktv cos celebrating yizhong bday and also a farewell for zongwei. haha. he going tekong le. and he also got a surprise from us. thats is kana throw into ecp sea during the day. hahaha. so fun today. anyway, gtg le. think thats all for today. haha.

2005-06-05T01:35:00.000+08:00

yoyoyo. haha finally got to blog. jus now had a non stop chatting session for 2hrs with the club members and the new yr1s. haha. very fun and although messy la. haha. but was a great fun adding and chatting and crapping and all. haha.

anyway, straight go to highlight for today. I NEVER ZIP MY JEANS. hahahha. cos went to downtown east to celebrate my fren's bday. then wore a jeans. then realise that i never zip when i having my meal at there. haha. so meaning~~~ i've been walking around for the whole journey wo zipping it. hahahaha. stupid me. but heng i wear a oversized t-shirt. to cover it. hahhaa. but had a tiring day today too. haha. anyway. think thats all. take care guys and girls.

2005-05-29T23:13:00.000+08:00

today had a day at tian guo. today is huan ying hui cos there's another group of tong xiu came to visit us. yup the day was good. see the performance put up for them. really touching. me nearly broke into tears cos our master had really sacrificed alot for wat we have today. the story of a piece of watermelon. roughly got the details of the story and willing to share with u all.

after that in the evening went for a meeting on the performance group thingy. going to perform again soon in fo tang. today's meeting had much discussion and opinion. a bit firepower but still alright. ^_^ 6 rehearsals to go. but think need more due to change in scene. anyway, take care all. thats all for today.

2005-05-29T01:14:00.000+08:00

had almost my day at clarence house playing. haha. went play mahjong, poker and all. till 11+ then reach home. haha. had a fun day playing with his family and yes, it did too kill my boredom. it too made me realise something i do recently.

1stly wan say sorry to jun. * hope u are reading this cos i really wan to tell u this * recently had been msging u and all. although we crap alot but duno did i like somehow disturbed u cos its always me who kept msging the same old thing all over and over again. and ytd, i really very sad over ur msg telling me that u had outing with ur angels. i'm not blaming u or anything. but perhaps is i think too much le. i really feel alot for u. i noe i not ur bf o anything. but thats me. i've truely never felt this way since a long time ago. ytd i had really lost myself over u. yet after some cool down thinking during today i really wanted to say sorry. u too have ur own world to live in too. morever i'm jus part of ur life. i really hope if i had really irritated u recently, u will forgive me. i jus dun wish to lose u as part of my life. noeing u in such short time made me felt different. u were the one who gave me morale encouragement *although my frens did told me too but ur's is jus that special* when i really down during the holidays. chatting with u really makes me feel that time is not a factor around us while its the company of each other. well, like ur nick says 'u're the reason i believe in love'. i really hope i can be the 'u' cos i replied 'u are the one wo showed me wat is love'. i'm never afraid to express myself to u cos i wan u to noe how i really feel. its childish, but i really cant hide it inside anymore. i'll be there for u when u need me cos u are there when i need someone.

2ndly, time to sleep le. getting up at 7.30 tml morning. take care.

i dun wish to hurt u emotonally too. no matrer how long it takes, i'll be waiting for u.

2005-05-27T21:28:00.000+08:00

jus felt today not in the correct rythem of life. somehow lost something in me that make me smile. the moment i race, i felt that way. had been losing since i sat at the driver seat. think i should not get so immersed into the game as like it says, its a game. but still kept racing to find back the feeling. really felt like nth o anything.

early morning went back to sch met pei lin to pass her something. then stayed in sch to wait for tze hao to print the reimbursement thingy. then met some of the freshies then we all went off. had lunch with them and yes, was very happy and enjoyable. haha. felt old now and noe that frenship is even more important. hopefully after the start of the new semester, my load will be only on studies and frenships. came to noe i cannot make decision for big group of people such as club. cos my decision is always a crazy idea. thats y its not good for big group of ppl. shall pass on to others who can make the true decision that can benefit the club. for me, i had tarnished myself in club and shall not manage it in any way, any form.

there's one time one o my fren told me: he does not wan to make decision that will affect the club's future. think thats the reason for him to be a side kick till now ba. but its the ideal 'character' that i wanted to be. jus be a sidekick to help out and not doing the management. think being the vice president is the 1st step that my mistake is. truthfully speaking i had not did my duty as a vice president. cos i not capable of doing it too. and ppl look up to me. therefore i have to 'against' my own human nature which is emotional. now i truely understand wat is do things within ur limit. for this will live on with me.

been feeling that i think alot recently. thought too much till i cannot differentiate wat is reality and dream. jus need someone to bring me back to life. jus need someone tell me which is real which is dream. at least a sign.

2005-05-26T22:20:00.000+08:00

so long din blog le. haha. almost too lazy to blog today. hmm. had a 1/2 day at the arcade watching ppl play and playing myself too. played till a bit pissed off cos matched up with a stupid slammer. nbm nbm. he jus a lousy guy cos i noe his proper skills not that good. while me? secretly learning how to slam others car if they slam me. haha. =p me went to bugis de arcade today anyway. haha. cos was intend to go for a movie with jun but she's not free. so tried to spend my day watching ppl play too. haha.

today also under some sleeping spells. keep on wanting to close my eyes. duno y. haha. think its really nice to sleep ba. hehe. also duno wat i thinking now. alot of images ran thru my mind. jus wanted to settle myself down. anyway, thats all for today. take care guys. and girl. hehe

you're the reason i believe in love cos you showed me wat is love

2005-05-19T00:20:00.000+08:00

had day tour briefing today but i din went. haha. while i joined the guys for lunch. had a quick one cos have togo back club settle finance thingy. but din expect that me will slack so long till time flies. almost 4.30. haha. then rushed weixin to write the receipt book so that can pass to ms ang and bank in the money to finance. hahaha. jus hit the dot of bank in time. haha.

after that went to paradiz to find the others cos they playing pool. b4 going over, tze hao wanted to buy a pressie for her gf-to-be. haha. find it sweet for them. ^_^ then wei jian was also thinking of buying but he din. while he brought hao to the shop he usually patronize. haha. while me?? went arcade looking for challenger. haha. won some rounds b4 going off. haha. then gave daniel my discarded card. at least can create 2 more 600hp car. haha. mazda rx-7 leh. hahhaa. =p he created le then 1 more lo. hmm.. after that went over paradiz find them and went off in no time cos peilin have to reach home early. then while me the nothing-to-do person went to bugis to look for challenger again. haha. indeed there's challenge going on. haha. running highway no prob la. but running mountain roads, haha. need more training le =p but anyway, had a fun day today with frens and on road. haha.

funny thing is, while racing, tot of jun. haha. qi guai nehz. mus be cos i bang into divider then i tot of her ba. =p =x hahah. jus kidding la. but after the game gave her a call. jus realise its her last day o working today~ huh huh. sad. cant see u in lime green shirt le. hahaha. =p then 'update' each other on wat's happening recently on us. haha. really joky when chatting with her. somehow, jus felt really comfortable and special with her company. haha okok. time to sleep le nite nite.

2005-05-17T00:01:00.000+08:00

yoyoyo cindy~~ =p haha. jus came back from club's FO camp. jus like another dream had past me. although the freshies enjoy themselves, but somehow in me, jus felt that somethings are jus regrets during the camp period. everyone had been thru the pain and everything. while i can say i did really nothing. and veen i did, was in vain. guess i really had tarnished my reputation in club till now, no one listen to me. its not a bad thing though cos some things sometimes need a reset. jus like now, club is no longer my clique le. jus go there finding the good frens inside and nth else. the commitment i used to have, is no longer there. last time the ppl i used to talk to, had turned away from me. now, its time to find some new ppl le. yes and in camp, i did realise the new frens i found. can chat and talk to them freely. thats the feeling i want. this is something i'll cherish more.

anyway, today's the break camp day and there are tears in my eyes. for the 1st time, i cried in my poly life. its not sad while touching and memorable. really thinking back, been to the same camp for 3 times and be in 3 different types of post. its really tough and somehow understand each and every individual's feeling. thanks to u guys and girls out there. to help out the club's biggest event making it a success. now jus hoping when school starts, everyone will be fine. there's so much to say but its jus hard to write it in words.

i'm prepared to lose the respect i have cos i noe that i dun have any.
even if there is, i'll never be able to control it.

2005-05-05T20:41:00.000+08:00

went to cls chalet 2 days ago. felt a bit guilty that din pass the news down well to the other farewell committee ppl cos end up only bout 10+ stayed back and overnight. was a fun day and had much jokes cracked especially on food. haha. hmm. then had a few mahjong games and went for some edutional tour around changi village there. haha. went there see 'girls, 'girls and cars. haha. saw some nice sports like skyline BNR34 and integra DC2. rarely can see DC2 in sg le. haha. was really my luck to see 1. then back at the chalet had some wine session with mr ho. hmm. although din talk much but had really nice experience tasting the wine. it was great. haha. then was unkowingly knockout at 2am when i jus wan to lie around for awhile. haha. although din enjoy much but seeing others enjoying too me too glad for them too. only waste was that kai xin guo msged me and telling me the stars are nice out that night. haha. thats the thing i missed out. maybe perhaps can catch the stars again at other times. k la, go le. tml got game trial 2. take care all.

jus felt i busted something precious. or is it i think too much le? hope that one day, the stars could be our blanket in the night.

2005-05-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

today noon went to replace my danaged ez link card at jurong east. took about 1hr + to get the new card. then went to jp to have a game of maxi2. left 1 more part to complete the story. its difficult but think can complete de. anyway, after that went to lz house to eat some dinner and head to bt panjang for bowling with youth group frens. guess kinda felt a bit left out ba. maybe is cos i too quiet le? o too tired? i also duno myself. jus felt that i cant blend in anymore. the place where i felt secure and homely, now no longer make me feel so. think too muc things happen around me, straining alot of things. misundertandings and all. really making my life in a mess. think shall finish my camp and all, then i'll settle watever is a mess in my life. i wan to be clear again. to be wat i always be: cheerful

had been quite in bad mood after from panjang. but jus dun wan affect anyone's mood. thats y put on a smiling face. hope tml will be alright.

having to see ur words, always make me smile. u can really cheer me up.

2005-04-28T21:19:00.000+08:00

ytd a fren told me: to blog is cos we are not happy. although i disagree but somehow, felt that the blog is a place of no happiness. now to think, sometimes blogging is to let ppl noe how we are. yup, its true, especially to frens who we had not contact for a long time. but for those who had frens around them and still blog, it does means that there's something that we kept within us.

anyway, had been busy with sch fo camp. although i felt lost in mind of wat to do now. to see everyone are busy with their part to do with. yet i doing nth. somehow felt a bit guilty. somehow, my mind is being preoccupied by somthing. jus cant explain it. its like afraid of losing of something. jus duno how to say. a mysterious feeling. anyway, nth more to blog le. wierd entry today.

somehow my mind is missing something.

2005-04-16T22:25:00.000+08:00

1stly, wan to congrats yiyun for finding her true love. may her wish never fade away. ^_^

2ndly, had great fun at ubin ytd. talk cock, cooking dinner and all. really a good time. although slept most, the enjoyment in me is really unexpressable. slept at home during noon time. still not enough sleep. haha.

today was an exceptionally bad day for me. nt enough sleep nvm but its that i discover something in me: my past. being very quiet today. very quiet till hardly got any expression. duno in this world are there ppl having the same feeling as me today. noeing that having this feeling today, jus got to lock up myself to cool down awhile. but for now, its not my way of doing le. so no matter wat, still have to cheer up as nth in this world can beat a smile ^_^.

think thats all for today. duno wat i blogging liao

when we lose that special thing, we also lose a big part of ourselves.
when something is able to catch hold of ourselves, its a new special thing to us.

2005-04-07T21:11:00.000+08:00

had a dream this noon when having nap. dreamt and saw SHE. haha. somehow sang with them. but a bit pasiae cos noe i dun sound gd. but still a dream nia. haha. then dreamt of 2 small little girl. somehow went with them to play water slides. but the scene was a canal. at 1st saw them jumping into the canal and went with them to see wat will happen next. suprisingly saw 2 slides. so each took 1. slide down the water and finally landed into the deep waters. when dived into the waters, realised that in life, its not possible for us to be where we wan to be. and once we chose the path to take, then try our best to walk this path. even if we are been forced to take another path, also be positive to hope for a new happening when walking down the path.

for life is bright, jus like the light. it smiles to us when we wake up and sees it. the night jus symbolises the time for us to rest. even if we are moving, we will be tired. therefore, a rest doesnt mean its a stop of life. jus a pit stop. anyway, jus hope everyone live as bright as the ligh ^_^ take care all. take leave le.

2005-04-07T00:59:00.000+08:00

had some studying in sch today. wha. heavy downpour at sp today. super rainy and 'thunderstorm' haha.. anyway today study alot le. think can try out some new questions to see whether i understand wat i learnt o not. hehe. also kan jiong till tot tml got paper but actually its on friday. think i really paranoid after i did my chem reactions. hehe. anyway, good luck to all of u who are having exams. dun kana forward ah ^_^

2005-04-04T22:45:00.000+08:00

finished watching the contender. learnt a life philosophy. life is there to be up and down. but there are times when we really met our lower hand disadvantage. a match between anthony and brent was a example. a KO after 3rd round. this was due to anthony is much more stronger and faster than brent and brent was the smallest fighter among the contenders. felt that in brent's life, he really met his unlucky part. fighting a lion whne he's jus a cat.

but even though they were a mismatch, the others might change their point of view towards anthong if he din hit brent that hard, have mercy and allow a fair match between them. anthony's mistake was to select brent when he had a pact to challenge the other guy.

in life, its also the same. if we have the upper hand, shall not be too arrogent as we might have our own ppl turning against us. but if we have the lower hand, we should do our best to win no matter how difficult it is. even if we lost, shall not be demoralised as we had really tried our very best.

thats wat i wan to share. till here ^_^

2005-04-03T00:09:00.000+08:00

life had been complicated recently. really can tear lives apart. but i told myself, after complications, there will be simplicity. i'm putting equal trust to everyone, everytime. its only who will i put into.

being truthful sometimes its good. but, being too truthful, might hurt. saying everything out might not be good at times. only important points will be relavent. may the god show me the true path to the light.

went to fo tang and listened to a lesson with my whole heart. its about our original personality. really learnt alot. yet still, perhaps i'm jus too stupid ba. cannot use the philosophy of life properly or shall say learnt it properly. it all shall take time. this is the time, critical times, to see who will stand by me, trust me all the way when i really make vital mistakes that might scar our friendship and feelings. a test to myself.

2005-03-26T13:44:00.000+08:00

suddenly have a strong feeling to blog after viewing some of my frens blog. can see some of them really down recently. hope u guys can cheer up k? and some are living happily. may the happiness live in u k? ^_^

find that my life, used to be a very well-attentioned person. i mean ppl always give me the attention when i need. 1stly wan thanks all the ppl who gave me the attentions. only felt that recently, the limelight had shifted its position. never the same attention as it used to be. also getting old now. nearing 20 and my actions now still seems like a teenage. wanted to be mature, to be a real man, a daddy, an elder person living in its own peace and happiness, body also starts to deteriorate alot. used to be so fit and jumpy. now, guess can never be that active again. haha. no matter how i try.

relationship things going around me this time. should i find another gf? for temporary or for life? have yet to find someone that able to adapt to my life. realising my laziness in me, sometimes made myself upset. yet, i dun have the motivation to overcome this laziness. except for last time, when with xue ning. that was the only time i felt that i'm not that lazy. *still cant forget her, can anyone ever make me feel more love than her?*

to see new things is always my interest. to see it grow is always my enjoyment. to work for it is always my passion. if i could noe u, be with u and workout a relationship witth u, will i ever have u till the day i left this world peacefully?

2005-03-22T22:37:00.000+08:00

tml is the farewell party liaoz. can say somethings are done, some haven. getting worried about wat will happen tml. how would things turn out and more. perhaps there are some unnecessary worries also hard to say. wish i could find someone to talk to abot this.

also felt that ppl around me are getting attached ^_^ thats great. although always asking myself when will i find one too. but its still, my destiny. i cant push it. so let it take its course ba. also injuired my neck bone duno since when. now feeling uncomfortable looking down. so dun say i dao hor. is i really have difficulties.

and also wana apologise to everyone who helped out in the farewell party. sorry if i being too fierce or too demanding and commanding. and thanks for everyone who helped out in the farewel function. hope u all had enjoyed ur sacrificed time for the club and all. ^_^

a leader has the ability to let others know what they are thinking in their mind. for me, i'm just a good motivator, not a leader.

2005-03-18T01:52:00.000+08:00

been a long time since i update le. can say been living with a new rhythm of life recently ba. haha.. been thinking in another way. although busy, but still working well with the yr1s. thinking had screwed my frenship last time and now guess also got little, but i also duno wat i can say.

but now with a new rhythm beating in my life, a new blog skin, hope things will be new for me again. may the blood keeps running. ^_^

2005-03-09T12:37:00.000+08:00

think things had changed around me when i did not lift up my head. she had went back to him. can say i'm glad? o should say i'm hurt? perhaps glad ba. holding on to somethings that i cant possibly achieve is useless. at least she's happy, i'm happy. live on well ok? dun ever leave him anymore. he's the one who will always be there for u, not me. i'm no longer the same too.

now i can truely understand what it means by love more, hurt more. the more we give in, the more we might fall. can say is not fake feeling, but only felt tired. too tired to motivate myself to love someone again. now that she left my life, maybe is a load off from her ba. at least she wun get to cry every night, contridicting herself. i shall look forward to the future now, never look back.

u take care. are we still frens?

2005-02-28T22:15:00.000+08:00

always read stacy's blog always made me felt that don and her really made their life perfect. ^_^ glad they are cos to see others so loving, is always my motivation of living. at least this shows that every loved soul is always the strongest. although felt single and a bit alone, but still jus like to be alone. mo mo zi chi others and wishing they are living well.

although need someone to yi kao, but jus seems that i really afraid to hurt and be hurt again. jasmine, i've been questioning myself too recently. yes my heart is been moved by you. but i'm really afraid to hurt u due to my ignorance. jus felt that suddenly i duno wat to chat with u. really lost of words on how to start to find u. hz. really duno how to say. jus cant handle with relationship now.

2005-02-27T22:12:00.000+08:00

jus came back from camp today 4pm. wha. din slept well and was slow in response. din dare to scold o do anything when the camp went very wrong. really bad for me. as a decision maker, din make firm and fast decision, as a powerful person, din dare to use power to control the camp. after debriefing for today after break camp, felt that i really did nothing for the camp and the committee. really regret alot. hopefully my mistakes can be repented and done on the new FO committee.

i'm tired, really tired.

2005-02-11T15:38:00.000+08:00

can feel that i;m losing more than i getting now.

was intending to give a surprise to my fren's visit. at 1st told her that i cant go cos got going for yg steamboat session. but after that i found out that its at 1pm, was thinking i can go. finding her to chat but she dun seems happy. scolding me instead. hz. let u scold ba. can say i like a bit dua bai lo. ppl invite but i cant go. nvm. always brought disappointment to others. thats me. was tot of giving a surprise. but seems that not everyone like surprises. then i can forget bout everything liaoz. wat to do. all my fault.

if u are reading this, no matter wat i say now its no use le. no matter how many sorries i can say, can never make u forgive me. but still i want to say sorry.

till here.

2005-02-09T01:34:00.000+08:00

1stly here wan to wish all o u happy chinese new year. may all of u have a strong body and working ppl, cai yuan gun gun, studying de xue ye jing bu. hmm.. went to my grandma hse today. quite quiet there. not like celebrating any festive season. but still feel glad i went there with mum to see them. somehow. i felt the warmth of relative and kins. too much emotions to say here.

after that went to ah gong's hse. there mroe lively la. which cheered me up. but still felt that some relative is not there for the dinner. then played with my cousins. hehe.. felt like a kid =p anyway, really think that this yr is a year of actions. so hope everyone will be in their tip top condition for this action year. haha. so health come 1st. k la, think thats bout it for today.

eternal is the best thing we can have. although not very very happy, but its the happiness we can feel for life.

2005-01-31T23:49:00.000+08:00

hz... super sad.. jus now update 1/2 way then com hanged.. *argh* thn was saying that no update long time and my mum bought a bicycle le.. now things are alright le..

then the ad&D was a fun event for the club. went to sch at 1 to help social com to carry things to the hotel. its at hilton hotel. so was a good and fun day and night. had a good dinner and fun games and had a disco dancing. although din dance as crazy as last yr, still enjoy this yr's dinner and dance. at least, had so much talking and chatting with the yr1 and 3s. thats a good thingy.

then night went for 7-11 for supper and had a night long chat till 6am, all cannot make it le so went to sleep. hehe.. =p was super tired but cant sleep. keep taking care of syaza and xiao ben. she threw up a bit after some drink then now ok le. hehe. then syaz was too tired to respond and hehe.. hope u had enough rest le. anyway, things are busy now.. so might skip updating regularly. still tune into the silverworld bloggy. hehhee =p take care all. buaiz

2005-01-27T10:06:00.000+08:00

id-iot he-ll~~!! early morning got bad news. mum's bicycle kana stolen!! mum's bike = MINE. still sleeping when my mum woke me up and told me this.. to that ID-IOT THEIF: u are really a lousy human man.. stealing ppl's things.. dun let me see u on MY bike or either i'll destroy it, o i'll take it back.. u watch out!

*phew* after venting out my anger, better liaoz. hmm.. ytd went to bukit merah tehre to take poly50 prize. haha.. got a big backpack, a polo tee and a round neck tee, sports towel and a alum bottle.. o also a shorts.. haha.. sounds alot? it seems alot. heheh.. then went home with the same direction as xiao ben.. haha. had good time chatting with her.. so crappy..

then came home LZ told me he's going see doc.. cos bu shu fu ah.. then dianogsis is: high BP. eh bro, really dun stress too much la.. think too much - high BP. not worth it la.. do things thats in urreach, dun over do it. ^_^ k la, thats all.. lesson at 3 today.. wahahahahaha...

2005-01-24T20:07:00.000+08:00

`wha.. today wat a day sia... 1stly had lesson for only 3hrs where i got 6. hmm.. took 1/2 day off cos sth serious happen. a fren was on the verge of breaking down. then me and me fren immediately went over to see whether things are alright for me 'breaking' fren.. in the end, after some talking, things finally get settled down.. was totally stressed up... after that went to arcade to vent out all the bad and foul feeling.. went to play is bout 5+ ba.. wasted cant go for lesson.. hz.. should say frens are to be there when they need u most.. yes its true.. anyway, hopefully all o us do cherish our lives.. life is so wonderful despite of some chuo ze. ^_^

then today suddenly tot of lijuan.. *PL's fren* duno y la... then that stupid LZ wan say take her hp number for me.. haha.. dare u la.. da nian chu yi no have also CTL. haha. aiyo.. jus thining nia also niang chen bei ju.. heheh.. anyway, how's everyone on this monday blue?? hope u all have a good week this week. hehe.. go le..

2005-01-22T13:25:00.000+08:00

suddenly. past memories came back in a flash the moment i sat in front of the com.. 19yrs had ju past by so fast.. much changes i can felt. sweet feeling. main memories are the cptc life.. so relaxing. still can imagine the different view of the kdu. morning, noon, evening and night. jus feel like having a walk at there again.. but i noe it never happen. ^_^ anyway, back to real now.. gtg finish up my report liaoz.. take care all.

2005-01-21T15:18:00.000+08:00

finally... using someone's lappy to update.. haha.. typing slowly ah... hmm.. recalling.. wed had poly0 relay.. yay.. we came in top15.. cls sent 4 teams to run and all 4 teams are in top 15.. haha... that calls for a celebration.. haha.. but also very tired as running all my energy out.. hamstring are strained.. haha.. but still, its all worth it..

then thursday rest alot.. very tired and slept to my fullest.. haha... =p and had 2 hr tutotials in sch.. hehe.. and had rest totally for today.. hari raya haji.. haha.. good day to rest.. k la, anyway, gtg liaoz.. update again.

2005-01-17T23:34:00.000+08:00

haha.. today had inter cons club challenge bball match.. got a re-grouping and we have eee,mm,spsu and us. haha.. today tyco win eee by 4pts.. had quite a game.. was playing fast and i almost cant catch me breath.. hehe.. too long no play liaoz..

then did somthing which made me thrilled. which is to reject a lay up totally and hit the ball onto the board. aha.. despite that i sprained my thumb, but the feeling is so shiok sia.. haha =p *bam* haha.. then had a good game today.. nice nice. next match on feb.. long sia.. think that time might slack le ba.. haha.. anyway, how's everyone? so long no update le.. hehe.. take care all ah -^_^-

2005-01-13T22:54:00.000+08:00

hihi.. haha.. today had lil running for poly50.. and chamz.. the kick is coming.. muscle start to strain.. hopefully tml might be ok.. going to run 50 rnds leh... hehe... mus hold on..
rest on sat and sun and monday got inter-cons club game... hopefully body can take it.. hehe..

then today saw wenhui *pri sch de fren* at t4 com lab.. haha.. he called me and i nearly cant recognise him =p.. but still remember a bit of his feature.. then also had some chat with him and exchange contact.. then also talk bout how many pri sch de fren in sp.. haha.. come to think, quite alot leh.. haha.. then went on a fren hunt in friendster. haha.. =p

anyway, think have to rest early liaoz.. to recover more for tml. hehe.. =p gtg liaoz.. take care all~

those who are sick: take ur time to recover.. have more water and plenty of sleep =p.

2005-01-12T23:41:00.000+08:00

wha.. 1st time in my poly life i truely ran my S off sia.. haha.. been to me 1st poly50 training.. ran alot.. body was straining alot but try my best to catch up. then after training went home for dinner..

then actually was waiting for LZ call to go jp. but in the end he said he's bz.. so i went alone.. haha.. hand itchy ah.. so ran ran a while.. hmm.. then came home and online.. read blogs and chat.. internet kept giving me prob.. so having trouble chatting too.. but jus wan write a small stroy for today's entry.

being helpful and kind is what angels are.. some might be cunning and sly with ulterior motives but some are real and true heart of care and concern. even if some ppl are not in need of help, we are always in stand by for them. to be there when they need help. therefore, we are beside them silently.

the act of a devil is to care nothing and do things that hurt someone. bring chaos and pain to ppl. to see u in trouble is their wish and to see u suffer is their pleasure. morever they will slash ur skin and tear u up slowly. to hear ur scream is like a music to them.

so who will you wan to be with??

2005-01-10T21:35:00.000+08:00

sick again.. chamz.. the kick is coming up.. but after went see doc, ok liaoz. =p hmm.. hopefully by tml can be alive and kicking hard.. haha.. anyway, hope u guys had an enjoyable time in my blog. reading the story.. hehe.. recently many ppl sick also.. take care all.. buaiz..

2005-01-07T19:26:00.000+08:00

haha.. today can say is a fun day.. 1stly had chem reaction prac. can say i gong gong made it thru ba.. tired la.. bo bian.. haha.. somemore head giddy.. hmm after that still got lesson.. after sch was intending to go club to give SAA the donation tins. then saw andrea on the way. see she very worrird.. then noe what happen from her.. so accompanied her till we go back club.. then the funny part comes.. went in, was about to open club door and i say jingying.. wth is i say hi to her and i slipped and fall.. haha.. she was laughing and so did i.. haha.. ppl mei nu ma.. so this is the consequence u get for seeing a pretty w/o ur eyes on ur leg. haha.. =p

then after that went see xiao zhen and grace play tabletennis. haha.. then went out awhile to buy things and went home.. when out, then let sha da jie say. say i got to buy new shoes liao.. cos scared i slip and fall again.. say its dangerous.. haha.. never tot anyone will emphasise on this to me sia.. actually i noe my shoe is slippery, thats y i always walk carefully.. yet hor.. saw jy then i slip. haa.. totally is an accident. =p felt that she really care for ppl. *no mistaken ah* thx leh.. now got to save money to buy asap liaoz.. haha.. then jus reach home not along ago.. chat with her on the way back too. hmm.. jus wana say: ur life is much mroe vibrant outside.. no matter what, no matter how bad luck we are, dun take things too heavy.. take it lightly.. guess ur dream will not happen, dun worry.. i once had some bad dream like u.. so, cheer up a bit. ^_^

2005-01-06T22:05:00.000+08:00

terrible day.. coughing and sleeping in class.. cant afford to miss lessons.. cos i've no one to ask for notes, no one to explain thing to me.. even i have to drag my dead bosy over i will do it too.. jus for lessons.. jus because i'm alone.. although i'm better than some ppl but still.. no one will aid me when i really need them..

camp, work.. all i'm fighting now is alone.. little ppl is willing to help. jus cos all busy. yes all are busy, including me.. i can choose to reject it, but y i still wan take it?? i wan to share to all the yr1 ppl and also the coming freshies, the happiness, joy and fun we had experienced. share with them, play with them. it ain't difficult right?? will it take ur life?? NO!! everyone jus found their clique and jus forget how they met. i really hate it.. although i used to be a quiet ppl, and work less, but now i try my best to work more and chat more with the others.. but now, they went seperate ways from me.. its hurting and painful to see this.

if u were to stand alone on the street and no one is helping u, how will u feel?? what will u do?? hz.. anyway, saying so much also no use. jus felt lousy now.. felt so weak~ gtg now.. still have to study for practical. hope tml after practical will jus faint away. jus hope to close my eyes and care nothing about myself..

i miss you

2005-01-05T19:41:00.000+08:00

wha... still in sch nehz.. haha.. 1st time so hard working. hmm.. actually not very la hor.. haha.. anyway, how's everyone today?? i had me virus day again~~ ^_^" haha.. feeling sick now.. had sore throat 2 days ago.. duno y.. then now a bit feverish.. hmm.. then had sch till 1 today. then went for inter-cons games meeting at 3 and was last min kana called to council meeting at 3+. 1st thing whn i went there: where's ur president?? where's the other council members?? where's the letter of apology?? kns lo.. went there like be shield kana poked. but nbm nbm.. xi guan le.. got my ways to handle it. hahaha..

then had a long meeting and me was stoning there.. had 2 more projects they were proposing and think is in discussion liaoz.. anyway, i'm jus an observant.. jus to see. haha... suddenly tot of someone during the meeting and when came into com lab now. haha.. but nbm, not that impt..

think today is a good day ba.. saw a couple reconcile after a misunderstanding. haha.. thats gd ^_^ and saw blogs with words of happiness. haha. thinking i'm really walking on the opposite side of the earth. haha.. its so heart warming to see such things happen.. hehe.. although i dun have la..

anyway, gtg soon.. have to go home rest and cont to do.. for those who are CLS MEMBER AND YR 1, THERE'S A INTERRACTION CAMP COMING UP. IF U GUYS AND GIRLS ARE SEEING THIS, PLS GO TO THE CLUBHOUSE TO FIND OUT MORE OK?? will keep u guys updated bot it too.. ^_^ hehe.. bubbiex.

2005-01-05T01:04:00.000+08:00

hmm.. recently busy with interaction camp.. quite a lot o things have to settle. but thanks got the others to help out.. guess really have to fully concentrate on sch club and work liaoz.. no matter what, work is still the most impt..

then had much thinking today.. about my past.. what i had done for this acad year.. kinda regret, and memorable.. thinking i somehow learnt my lesson of life.. hehe.. time to put them into actions. hope my new life will be proven good. hehe.. k la, thats all.. gtg rest now..

2005-01-01T11:21:00.000+08:00

2005~~ a new year a new start.. start the year with a heavy down pour in the morning.. hahaha.. the rain woke me up from me slomber sleep.. haha.. anyway, felt so fresh when woke up.. jus that special feeling.. hope everyone have their new start from this year too ^_^ gtg now.. see ya~~ ^_^

2004-12-31T22:13:00.000+08:00

today.. hmm.. duo what to say. but deay jus past so fast. watching the news and thinking of the tradegy happen.. but thinking now is jus the salvation. no more death tolls.

then guess many are at sentosa happening. and also some at nic's hse counting down.. hope they enjoy ah.. me?? no $$ lo.. so no go anywhere. hehe.. rotting at home, counting down myself.. hmm.. as long as the world is peace, no more disaster, thats human's best blessing.

may 2005 be a good year. if the end of days are coming soon, what will you do?? are you prepare to leave earth to a new living enviroment??

2004-12-28T22:50:00.000+08:00

jus when i tot the peace and calm came to me, the tsunami came around at sumatra... hz.. natural disaster. jus as destructive as a bomb. many died.. and also wat a x'mas at indonesia.. never noe that things jus came about so fast and so powerful.. many shaken and shocked.

although had negative tinking recently but still, life is precious. without our life, we wun be what we are now. how i wish i could see a sunrise after this big disaster. which symbolises the new start of life. *i will never forget the sky that changes colour after a night of tiring battle. its jus the serenity and tranquility i wanted and imagined*

jus felt lonliness engulfed me..

2004-12-26T21:00:00.000+08:00

x'mas jus past by me and i felt nth?? haha.. perhaps is cos no snow ba.. =p now been feeling that my world without snow is like so empty.. wish that there's snow in singapore.. haha.. *which is totally impossible* but really feel like seeing and feeling 1 season of snow~~ haha..

anyway, x'mas is a nice season where ppl exchange gifts and blessings.. therefore, i hereby wish u guys and girls merry belated x'mas. hope that u all have many gifts. many gifts = many frens ma.. right?? hehe.. guess i really had not much frens.. jus a little ^_^ but thats enough.. cannot be greedy. haha..

bye guys. bye girls. take care.

2004-12-24T14:03:00.000+08:00

x'mas eve.. so much happening ard me.. *from reading of blogs* guess still a festive season is a good luck day for couples ba.. many had made up, many had enjoyed.. saying i really envy them cos i really not that fortunate to have such happiness.. can say i stubborn to tarnish my own happines.. but still felt that is imminent to let it go.. *sry* and really once i said this sentence : "some chances are can be seen yet we cant grab it." and its true enough to happen on me.. lonely x'mas is really cold.. yet still have to get it thru.. jus really my retribution of my doing.. anyway, should not spoil the festive mood. so everyone who are reading this, ENJOY UR X'MAS K?? its a joyeous season to be.. i'll find mine too.. ^_^

2004-12-23T23:01:00.000+08:00

today went to funan to buy clothing with the winno ppl.. such a long time since most o us gather liaoz.. its quite a gathering and i can feel the warm.. but think i really lost clique with many ppl ard me.. am i in the wrong o sth?? hz.. but anyway, hang ard there and had time talking and chatting...

then ytd was the x'mas party.. quite ok. many did came and duno if they enjoyed but i did. its really fun. cos of the disco.. haha.. and everyone was high and dancing like siao.. then syaza dance till leg no power liaoz.. then kneel on the floor.. haha... u heng there were many ppl ard.. if not.. dangerous ah. haha.. take care ah...

k la, think go off le... start to blog lesser and lesser..

2004-12-20T21:12:00.000+08:00

felt wierd today.. felt like not eough sleep and very qi guai~ then went to sch with a heavy head.. almost forget evening got meeting.. haha.. heng the chairman msged me.. then i remembered. =p but still in a gloomy mood.. really bth.. breath also hot hot de..

now even worse liaoz.. whole body nua nua one. hehe. then others take care too nehz.. scared i kana dengue.. hahaha

2004-12-19T01:30:00.000+08:00

recently guess is the love season le ba.. even me also been involved. not saying not good la.. but around me also got things happening.. bad and gd.. all comes down to me instinct. maybe ppl dun believe in these but think recently me prediction is quite true *provided i noe u* heh heh.. instinct is strong especially in bathroom.. hahaha.. so.. thats my feeling.. love is now everywhere.. is it only a starting o a ending of it.. ^_^

recently down with sickness.. trying to reculprate from it.. hope will revive soon.. whahahaha.. really like a dead man recently.. then too much things happen around me. cant take note to remember and blog here.. jus noe, need rest.. haha..

final word:
sistas, take gd care nehz.. company attachment not like cptc liaoz.. enjoy too ah~ ^_^

2004-12-15T21:26:00.000+08:00

had a day today.. went for 4hrs in sch.. ended up staying till 5+.. haha.. then met me fren lingzhi to chat.. ppl heart problem worm worm.. also wan help him solve a bit.. really chamz sia.. hmm.. then nth much to say also.. take care guys.. enjoy ur life too ^_^

2004-12-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

finally, i'm down with multiple sickness.. flu, fever, sorethroat and headache.. all came subsequently.. duno tml got the energy to go sch not.. i'm totally wear out.. felt so useless now.. ytd started already with flu. took med from xiao dai and its better.. but today, worsen till all these came out.. hz.. wat to do~~ jus me.. ytd drank 1.5L o water thruout the night. din have a good night sleep also.. chamz.. think got to drink more water again..

then recently guess many things happened ba.. instincts are back and this time guess its quite true. but now too weak to think much.

2004-12-12T17:28:00.000+08:00

finally blogging here. 4 days din blog.. here we go

thursday:
went to cptc to return ppe and final test. after that, had lots and lots of photo taking session with my group. hehe.. and can say is the last time we seeing each other in cptc.

friday:
went back to cptc for 2hrs for cert ceremony.everything was fast and therefore after that went to jp meet xiao dai. she shopping for sandals. then met lingzhi for game and thats all.

saturday:
woke up early for CI. but hell.. things drag.. but nbm.. noe new frens in my grp.. hehe.. had so much enjoyment and fun.. play with them and saying all the jokes.. and during lunch, one of them laugh till rice spit on to me. haha.. scared dio.. and lots ah. *too tired to think*

but also was a bit emotional. cos cpic life is gone.. finish le.. huai nian.. but have to move on. no matter that. hope that sistas all take care.. and also during CI, made some frens' morale down cos i waent quiet all o sudden. dun mind me. i'm alright. and also regret i did.. pasiae..

jus hope things are going fine soon.. *too tired, need some rest*
perhaps is i think too much liaoz.. not my type.. maybe lets jus be frens ba.. thats enough.

2004-12-08T20:28:00.000+08:00

today a normal day.. tiring but tot alot.. hmm.. went to lot1 play GHOST squard. quite ok. 1st 2rds play till gong gong de.. haha.. hmm.. then while on the way home, tot alot.. about life.. too much till now me mine blank.. haha.. but think too much also waste time. hehe..

k la, go rest liaoz.. nth much to write.. o ya, tml got final test.. work hard.. hehe..

2004-12-07T10:46:00.000+08:00

back.. din update ytd cos was totally tired when see the com screen. haha.. anyway, ytd was the last shift in cptc. had troubleshooting of the plant and tensions were high. some of the group members were angry when doing troubleshooting.. its not the process of finging the fault, is the boardman did not help us to zoom into the problems we face. in the end, made us do some unnecessary line tracing and wasted our time.. when we found the prob, we solved it and made our way back to the control house.. what the hell is they call us out to the plant and say there's a new prob.. ok~~ fine~~ so went.. and when we reached.. they say nth more.. can come back.. **** what the hell lo.. made us run 2 blank errands.. and many o us were angry. and that stupid malay tecko *tall guy* was so yaya papaya and arrogant, speak like he's the boss in the radio.. so nvm.. the trainer alaos noe he try to play us out.. therefore, his grp suffer..

trainer give them a very difficult one. almost same senario from mine, but its mroe harder to find.. then ask them to do some unnecessary senarios also.. haha.. all in the dcs were cheering when don reply them arrogantly too.. haha.. when that grp is back, all were penting.. cos went out for 1hr.. haha.. but really ke lian the innocent ppl in his grp.. have to accompany him run about in the plant.. haha.. after that was looking at ppl in dcs to stable the system and prepare for handover..

and had a dream last night.. about fire fighting again.. haha.. this time, i saw the real fire shooting out of the column. haha.. then quickly connect the hose and fight fire.. and guess what?? is only me and a duno what guy holding the hose and running fast. haha.. =p funny thing was.. the water is like lazy water, did not shoot up. ahha.. then of cos, runaway la.. arbo see fireworks ah.. haha =p but really, huai nian the times in cptc. 5weeks only.. and learn so much. also the frens there. so fun too.. hehe.. think i will have so much memories in my mind about cptc. hopefully the photos come quickly. =p *oppx.. being too emotional liaoz..*

k la, think thats about what i want to blog liaoz..listening to fly away.. haha.. felt its a meaningful song when i have memories thats so deep in me.. ^_^ buaiz..

2004-12-04T22:31:00.000+08:00

back from night shift and straight go to club meeting.. song bo~~~ ytd 8pm to morning 8am then meeting at 10.. till noon 12.. ahhaha.. =p

ytd night shift was doing shutdown process.. took really long.. and before that we got do switching over of system and soot blowing of the furnance.. the whole thing last till 2am b4 we started shutting down the whole plant. took bout 5hrs till 7am.. haha... after shutdown, the sun rises, sky starting to be bright.. really like.. after fighting a battle, here comes the serenity.. the feeling.. so peace. so nice.. was keep on monitoring the dcs for the plant to cool.. really need some basic calculation. haha.. and night time the guys played game to keep themselves awake.. aha.. fun fun.. ^_^

2004-12-03T16:59:00.000+08:00

yoyoz.. 3 days din update? haha.. cant blame me.. the blog spot spoil ah.. so cant update.. hmm...

wed:
had lecture and practical at cptc.. lecture jus a little nia.. but the whole day was like sianz sianz de.. kinda nth to do.. then got back mid term test results. jus pass by little nia.. haha.. 25.5/50. haha.. then had chat with sisters, rabbit and dilys when david was going thru the answers.. haha.. pass then pass liaoz.. so no listen attentively.. after that went to climb the flare.. was really a very small tower.. and its really shaky.. haha.. but nice nice.. learnt sth from there too.. ^_^

thurs:
started me shift training at 8am to 8pm.. was to to startup of the whole plant.. then zaidi briefed us thru what we need to set up and jus by starting the utilities, it took us 2hrs.. then started the kdu and the furnance.. was playing in the dcs for bout 5hrs. which i felt unfair to the others as i was in there learning so much and others jus outside hanging around. so friday will have to go out to the field more..learn alot in the dcs i should say. learn how to handle situations when the distillation tower was flooded and controlling of the temperature.. really too much to say till u experience it.. ^_^

then later doing night shift. 8pm to tml 8am.. haha.. hopefully can catch sunrise.. ^_^ think it will be very nice ba.. hehe.. k la, gtg liaoz.. take care all. buaiz..

2004-11-30T21:08:00.000+08:00

back from a day of 'wild wild wet' at jurong island.. haha.. today had fire fighting exercise.. *yay*. haha.. had so much fun playing the water.. but b4 that had a tiring time practicing how to unroll and roll the hose and the stepping. was like playing around la.. haha.. but when we spray the real water, was like: wha.. so heavy.. i'm going backwards sia.. even sista behind me also buey tahan ah.. haha.. so as the others at the back.. cos had to climb up the kdu unit. then had a hard time pulling the hose.. think the thickness of the hose made sth bend ah.. then like damaging it.. hehe... but heng it did not broke.

after that had water fight with zaidi's grp.. haa.. andre come splash us, then we use water jet to spray then whahahaha.. of cos not in face la.. a bit high up.. like shower.. then hit ppl at the control house entrance.. haha... =p then had a small war with rabbit.. haa.. was fun.. like child play *not horse play* haha.. then went to tank farm to play water again.. then rest and wash up liaoz.. haha.. all tired out liaoz.. then sister wenya and jenting both din play.. and one of them not feeling well liaoz.. *take care nehz.. get well soon* then had a hard time thinking where to dry boots.. super wet lo.. then tml have to wear again.. haha =p.. k la, thats all for today..

log book:
today had fire fighting exercise

haha.. thats all =p buaiz..

0.1 barg can make someone crazy,
12 barg can make someone fly away.

2004-11-29T22:04:00.000+08:00

back liaoz.. had a day of mechanicals.. doing repairs and dcs control.. tired sia..

log book:
today had practical on startup and shutdown of KDU through DCS and field. and also the blinding, steaming and deblinding of the pigging system.

haha.. tired ah.. duno can recal what i did for starting up and shutting down of kdu nit.. hopefully will remember la.. =p

anyway, had fun doing practical.. talking cock in the dcs and the tiring time of screwing the nuts and bolts.. haha.. jus noe that sista was moving while holding the nut that i was screwing... aha.. really funny to see her moving while i screw tight.. haha =p.. sista, u rocks man.. hehe =p eat more rice la =p.. hehe.. k la, think go rest liaoz.. nitez.

2004-11-26T20:50:00.000+08:00

yoyo.. had long day for practical.. hha.. enjoy life sia today.. most happening too

log book:
today lecture learn about fuel switchover. then practical done air compressor maintainence and start up and shutdown of furnance on field and through DCS.

the furnance is one of the important component in the industry or a plant. as it will burn off any unwanted gas and also in turn heat up fluids for other uses. the furnance consist of 4 parts. starting from the top is the stack, convection section, radiant section and the bottom is the burner.

the stack consist of a stack damper that can be adjusted to full open, half open or full close.this is to regulate the amount of air and pressure in the furnance. the convection section consist of hot oil tubes. these tubes are been heated up when the furnance is on operation. the heated oil will be used to transfer heat for other operations like heat exchanging in e-102. it also have a soot blower which blow off soot deposits using steam when maintainence. the radient section is the part where the flame is and lastly the burner is the part where pilot burner and the main burner of the furnance are situated at. the furnance is also equipped with safeguard system. this is to prevent any explosive misture in the furnance and cause danger to the plant and working personnel.

we were taught on the DCS control of the furnance and line setup at the field before we start lighting the pilot flame. the DCS uses a BMS (Burner Management System). this system consist of 3 steps: limit check, pilot flame light and main burner light. firstly, we will start the BMS from the DCS and the system will auto start limit check on the TSO valves at the field. after limit check, field man is to press the burner start button, so that the furnance can be purge for 300s, to remove any combustable gas in the furnance for safety reason. after purging completed, field man is to proceed to open HV-382 which is the pilot fuel gas in order to light the pilot gas. when its lighted, the flame detector will detect a flame signal and will turn grey on DCS. it will also show "pilot gas lighted" and will start counting down 600s for ignition of main burne before the system shutdown. for today experiment, we attempt to light up the main burner. visual cue shows successful light up of main burner but the flame detector was unable to detect flame due to some mechanical reason and therefore, the whole furnance was shutdown. the lining up of fuel gas for main burner is almost the same as for pilot gas. only diference is that after system is been purged, we have to open HV-381 very slowly as the system will trip and shutdown if the main fuel gas pressure drops below 0.05barg.

(to be continue...)

anyway, today sister stacy did not came. think she's unwell ba *take care and get well soon nehz.. mei you ni hai zhen you dian ji mo. haha* but sister jasmine came back, hehe. her sore eye is gone.. then jen and lu meng keep on suan-ing me bout stacy. keep asking me where is she, what happen all these.. haha sai la.. i no have her contact how to noe sia . =p anyway, had a fun time playing with radio, DCS and frens. kinda bully xiao bai tu also.. haha.. now looking forward to tuesday. got fire fighting practice. *yay* can make a swimming pool out of the tank farm liaoz.. haha.. and me and xiao bai tu got a fight to settle.. using water hose.. haha =p k la, thats all buaiz. take care all.
mei you ni zai de yi tian, zhen de you dian jing.

2004-11-25T22:39:00.000+08:00

yoyoz.. back liaoz.. as usual, give a short update then go sleep liaoz..

log book:
today had lecture on fire fighting system & equipment, soot blowing, furnance moniroting and furnance commissioning and decomissioning. practical we learn about maintainence, furnance components and DCS control for pumps and system.

haha.. then had a fun time playing on the talkie while doing DCS. had fun. also had some talkng with sisters. then had my heart on ease due to ytd's happening. although she still a bit pissed off la. but think if dun go stir things up think will not have prob de ba.. ^_^ heez..then also kana sister's slapping again.. hha cos attempt to write her name on her helmet. haha =p a bit childish =p hehe.. k la, thats all.. tired liaoz.. had a headache.. tc all ^_^

so happy today. get to chat and play with you.

2004-11-24T22:23:00.000+08:00

yoyoz.. had a great day studying and talking to sisters at cptc. haha =p

log book:
today had lecture on autonomous maintainence, furnance components and its control operation. while practical we learn how to swing start motor pump to turbine pump and back. and also startup and shutdown of canned pump.

anyway, had fun while practical. cos got to talk to sisters and my grp ppl. haha.. anyway, think till here liaoz.. buaiz

did my mood swing cos what happened today? will frenship jus ended here? someone, please give me some advices.

2004-11-23T21:25:00.000+08:00

yoyoz.. back back liaoz.. haha.. but same la.. back home tired.. hehe.. so here's me today entry.

log book:
today lecture learnt gas and air compressors and its operating procedures. prac we went to flowserve lab to understand 2 types of pump. ansi and api design. then we were allow to dismantle and fix back the pump. haha.. was a bit like a challenge la.. but somehow we were slow. but til now, we understand the basic part and components of the pump.

hz.. thats all.. had a tired day.. duno y.. wanting to rest early tonight. *yawns* anyway, go rest liaoz.. nitez..

2004-11-22T22:22:00.000+08:00

yoyoz.. afew days no update liaoz.. haha.. was too tired to update.. thats y.. hehe.. then today had an enjoyable day. tml got mid term test.. so hurry finish today's entry.

log book:
today lecture learnt about types of pumps, its operating procedures, troubleshooting of pumps, turbine comissioning and utility tie-in process equipment. for practical, we learnt about AOC/COC, flare system and starting up of flare and pigging system.

think thats all for today's log.. haha.. duno what to write liaoz.. then today before prac, we climb the tower.. haha c-100.. again, i climb for the 2nd time.. haha.. finally wrote me initials name up there =p whahahahhaa.... so happy.. also got pics from the digicam.. cant wait to get it liaoz... happy happy... then someone wana sabo aloy.. then wrote his name upthere at the column.. very big wor.. i saw it too. haha. it says aloy love wenya.. whahaha.. then told her to take a look too.. so as i told her frens.. but perhaps its a bit childish ba.. thats y when she came down, talked to her and her clicks a bit.. can see she dun look good ba.. perhaps a bit pissed off?? o sth.. ask her got bf not.. no reply.. haha.. nbm nbm. most likely have la =p.. then was talking to them thru out the whole prac session.. almost din listen to david's prac explaination. haha.. heng still understand. glad that i did listen to the lectures and a bit due to my charateristic.. me is more of logical and systematic person.. haha =p..

then kinda mixed around with the girls. haha.. but i also scared i left out with my sch guys.. scared got comm breakdown. hmm.. hopefully can la.. then they treat me as their SISTER~~~ haha.. bo bianz la.. sister liaoz.. then sister lo.. then name also or biang ah.. susan sia.. saiz.. haha.. then jasmine also used to call me sister liaoz sia.. somemore call my name chi ren *eat ppl*. deh.. haha.. but its she call wrongly la.. =p. ppl tkd black belt de nehz.. dun play play.. but still cant hit me.. haha.. bully her sia.. as usuall.. use me long hand methos.. haha.. then kana knock on head by wenya.. chamz.. haha.. 1 in trouble, the other one hit me =p haha.. k la, thats all..

2004-11-19T21:15:00.000+08:00

back home.. haha.. a bit tired.. but b4 sleeping, update 1st.. had a fun time learning today.. especially during prac.. hehe..

log book:
today had lesson on pigging system *sounds funny??*, flare system, mechanical work preparation and field monitoring of heat exchangers and problems. practical we learn how to decomission and comission a heat exchanger. we had understand the importance of swinging of 1 exchanger to another and the deaining and venting of the exchanger before and mechanical work been done on the heat exchanger.

before we went out to see and do any mechanical work on the exchanger, we are briefed on the importance of permit application and the procedures before doing the maintainence work. we are given chance to attempt to fill in the permit ourselves before guidence given so that we can understand which part is to be filled in my the applicant, the supervisior and the approving party. we also know nad take note important parts and details in case we are in doubt. example is when there is checkbox, either tick or cross the box. after briefing, we went out to the field and look at the exchanger. its totally different from the schematic diagram but its theory is about the same. only problem is the location of the valve and flanges. the exchanger had done some modificaions for some convenience and advantages like reducing the number of valves used in the plant. the type of blind use for each flanges are also different. from the exchanger, we can see that the hot inlet and out are using 2"-300lb blnds and the cold inlet and outlet uses 2"-150lb blinds. this might be due to the different pressure in the pipelines cause by the temperature of the process fluid. therefore, different weight of the blinds used is to have the ability to withstand the flow pressure.

after 30min to 1hr of finding and identification, we are able to understand the flow pattern and the operation procedure and finally complete the permit like signing off the permit and checklist for the mechanical work of the heat exchanger.

thats all for itp. haha.. also duno y.. think cos due to interaction of our grp ba.. tend to talk and chat with the other poly ppl in my grp.. about the heat exchanger.. cos alot o them seems confused and therefore, help to explain to them.. 1stly was jus asking jasmine to help me take leather gloves.. then kana don shoot. -__- haha.. but she was frenly la.. although a bit kan jiong type.. haha.. then during the field prac had also talked to them bout the exchanger.. hopefully this will improve our teamwork la.. if we need. also noe frens ma.. haha =p k la thats all.

was it too fast or too much? got 1 step closer by nature. looked at you, but when you turn at me, i looked away. perhaps its just too much. think too much.

2004-11-18T20:28:00.000+08:00

yoyoz.. back today.. had a good time climbing the distillation tower that is bout 10 storey up.. haha.. had a very nice view of the night of jurong island.. very nice~~ love it.. a feeling only experience can tell and not words.. haha.. =p

then today had PFD test.. haha.. test like no test like that.. can discuss answer de.. haha =p nyp de more power.. take the diagram and reproduce.. haha =p

log book:
had lesson on heat transfer, decomissioning and comissioning of the heat exchangers and work permit in the industry.. then prac did lab tests, sample collection, instrumentation and tank gauging.. went to the top of oil storage tank and measure the height of the tank. *shall not elaborate mroe cos today nth much... maybe decomission and comission ba.*

hmm.. then chiong the distillation tower.. really tired sia.. haha.. very windy~~ =p hmm.. then thats all le.. take care all.. those in camps, enjoy~~

the face, looks so sweet, yet you are just a stranger to me. your smile is so warm. wish i could know you, just a little more. hope that we could talk to each other and be friends. you are just like a snow white in the chilling snow.

2004-11-17T23:04:00.000+08:00

yoyo.. haha today had a long day for itp... duno y.. lecture time very slow, practical seems fast.. haha =p.. but its good la... then tml got test on PFD.. sianz...

log book:
today we did advance process control, level measurement, tank operation, DCS, process sampling. not very much details are been taught..

for process sampling, it is important for us to get samples from our storage tanks and process pipes.. as we have to ense product we are producing is of specifications we wanted. we can also detect problems early in the process before it truely arises. there are 3 states of samples we can collect: solid, liquid, gas. whike collecting the samples, we also have to observe the safety precautions and the hazards it might have. hazards like getting injuired by coming into contact with the test chemical. some of the release from the samples might also be hazardous to the enviroment. therefore observing safety like wearing PPE, reading the Material Safety Data Sheet of the chemical we are handling,and wear additional protective gear if necessary.. also stand facing the direction of the wind blowing and stand away from the nozzle of the discharge point while collecting to prevent spillage on ourselves.

as in petrol chemical industries we usually deal with sample in liquid state, the understanding of the preparation of the liquid sample is important. to prepare the sampling sample, we mus take note of the info of the sample take example: date and time taken, sampling point location, analysis required, name of sample and any additional remarks, the sampling location and the type of container use to contain the sample. to get representative sample, we have to take only the sample and not other liquids. rinse the container with the sample several times to prevent contamination and interference.

hmm k la, think bored with u all too much of these info liaoz.. had practical of line tracing.. was raining heavily at there.. then delay our training prog. but we still went out to the field eventually and took some pic at there for memory.. haha.. then went off early and back home le.. thats all ^_^ take care

2004-11-16T20:43:00.000+08:00

yoyo.. today finally got go itp liaoz.. haha.. but still tired =p anyway, this is what happen today..

log book:
today we had lesson mostly on distillation column. on the basic components, basic principle, the design data and specification of the column c-100/101, the operation problems we might encounter and the process control for it.

the process control of the distillation column is important as various control and flow valves are to be appropriately handled when prooblem arises in the column. example: when the column is at a high operating temperature, more reflux must be pumped into the column toreduce the temperature to achieve the balance in the system. therefore, it is important for us to noe what valves to open and close in order to make the fluid flow correctly to the column. if no action is done, it might affect the distillation effeiciency and will affect the specificatioin of the products.

haha.. thats all bout it for the lecture.. u all see liao also sianz right?? haha.. then after that we went to the field, looking at various systems and fire fighting equipment.. haha.. play with water gun.. =p then after that wait for bus and back home lo.. ahha =p k la thats all.. take care nehz

2004-11-15T22:10:00.000+08:00

today is a tiring but enjoyable day.. haa.. went to suntec eat with lingzhi, jas and steph. then went to marche to eat.. wha.. eat till a bit ex ah.. haha... but nbm la.. for fun joy... then went to arcade play... was stoning all the way cos after arcade, was kinda tired.. so din notice whats going on jus now.. pasiae wor...

then ytd went to sentosa with cedric, xiao ben, xiao sha and xiao dai.. and more la.. but hor.. main character here.. aha.. =p had a fun time playing and swimming with them.. and got myself rashes too as usuall.. haha.. then think sun burnt cos when skin rash, it will brun more easily.. thats y feel a bit pain now.. then hor.. they bury my leg when i resting.. initially was my right leg, then left leg, then left hand, then whole body.. they also good sia.. dug a hole under me back and als created sand 'chest' for me ah.. size of a fist!!!! -___- sianz.. haha.. but fun la... then went to harbourfront centre eat and went back le..

then at batok, met celine and LT cos they at westmall there doing sth.. then i went there see see look look haha.. in the end, i also joined in... haha.. but its jus writing of words of encouragement for them.. they going overseas ma. hehe.. then went back home le..

hz.. actually was not wanting to update.. but scared might forget what happened at sentosa.. so came here.. hehe.. had so much tot in mind after watching the 9pm show at ch8.. was thinking that i'm jus like yixuan.. who caught the right pair of wings at the wrong time.. hz.. made me thought of her.. although the show might say she and kaiwei will reconcile, but think in real life, this might not happen.. its really different from fictional stories.. felt that sometimes i'm jus selfish. too selfish.. in relationship.. but when coming to amend, i really dun have the courage.. i once said i wun regret.. yet regretting the most is me... but think jus have to let it go.. thats all..

2004-11-12T22:52:00.000+08:00

yoyo... finally back liaoz.. haha.. ytd no update.. so let u all noe what happen ytd.

went to arcade with lingzhi and yiyun.. jus asked her along. then morning she woke up late.. then waited for her till 1045 then went to meet lingzhi then go play arcade le..play till 1+ then we go eat, then yiyun went to irene's hse to pass her present over to her.. but she not at home, there pass to her dad. then played 2nd round of arcade then went home rest le.. haha.. then after that yiyun msged me telling me sth.. *dun wish to mention here* BUT ANYWAY, jus wana say, let it pass.. dun wish to ponder over it le...

then today.. haha...
log book:
today itp lecture been scrapped off *no lesson* haha =p

thats all.. then went back to sch help wee ten to get their sports thingy for tml's alumni match..after that went out eith irene, eunice and jun jie.. they wana catch a movie but my time cannot accomoodate.. therefore missed it lo.. haha.. watch taxi leh.. i wanted to.. then andrea also came.. they bluff her is watching doll master.. haha.. she scared till lao bak sai.. =p k la, that all..

2004-11-10T22:08:00.000+08:00

yoyoz.. back le.. hehe. playing RO now while updating. hehe.. in case i forget to update so update now. haha.. hmm.. had quite a busy day.. *busy copying* haha.. then after itp went to eat with class.. then home le.. =p

log book:
today we had lessons on cooling water system, steam system, nitrogen system, field monitoring, AOC/COC *Accidental and Contineous Oil contaminated*, basic control instruments, eletric sub-station and hazards and line tracing. we got a notes that consist of 4 pages of lines showing the plan of the plant. *xiao zhu, maybe need u to teach me how to use autocad wor.. hehe* then had a 'great' time coyping the notes down. haha...

thats all for today.. take care all.. =p

2004-11-09T17:14:00.000+08:00

yoyoz.. back again.. hehe.. have to updatea bit.. at least bout my itp right?? =p well, was late this morning for lecture.. but heng still on time cos they start at 9 where i reach at 8.45. hehe.. was woke up by call from walter saying where am i.. *thx guys. for waiting me but i still in lala land ^_^* hehe.. then my pa heard liaoz also quickly rush.. yi bian rush yi bian say me... then he drove me to CPTC. was caught in a jam when nearing the checkpoint... hehe.. but nbm nbm. make it jiu hao..

log book:
then today is a full day course for OPSOC *Oil & Petroleum Safety Orientation Course*. it teaches us all the safety factors and the cause of dangers in the industry.. in case of emergency, we know what to do. it consist of 5 modules, each with their sub modules.. consider it to be more of commonsense questions but in time of crisis, its useful. then after the lecture there's a video showing what we had covered about for the last 5hrs -_- haha,. treat it as refresh lo.. then after that had a short test *which is really funny lo* remember got 1 question :"if u are being slashed by corrosive chemical, what will you do??" and 1 of the options was really funny "roll down on the floor and cry out loud" haha.. really funny lo. then alot of rubbish options de la.. funny.. haha

then after that went to play bball awhile then soon it rained le.. was playing with nyp ppl.. nice game but a bit tension i can feel.. hehe. then went to collect me hp from yiyun *thx wor.. help me bao guan it for 2 days* ^_^ then back here le.. ehhe.. tired sia... think tonight sleep early.. hopefully tml wun slep in lecture le.. take care all.. buaiz

2004-11-08T22:43:00.000+08:00

yoyox... back le.. miss me?? =p heh heh.. few days din update le... cos ytd went to xiao ben's class chalet.. went there enjoy and relac b4 having itp today.. yet, still slept during the lecture.. haha... but been issued with our PPE *Personal Protection Equipment*. then had some lectures bout safety thingy and some valves lesson..

this is how my daily assignment will be in my log book:
today we attended the lecture at CPTC. these lessons includes different types of valve, actuator gas detector and also some fire alarm systems. they also issued us with our personal protection equipment and our locker. rules and regulations are also been briefed at the welcome speech.

haha.. thats all.. then ytd went to xiao ben's chalet at sentosa. had a fun time there playing and sleeping.. heh heh.. quite blur cos i forget what i did there le.. jus noe the night walk at the jungle trail then quite long.. but enjoyable.. then whole night kana slapped by xiao ben, xiao dai, shuling and grace *a little* haha.. =p then had some 'drink' then slept thru the night *3 to 5am* haha.. then till now le.. anyway, take care all..

who ae doing itp: rest well.. its tough.. jia you wor..
no doing itp de: enjoy ur hols wor.. next sem ur turn liaoz.. ahahha

2004-11-06T11:08:00.000+08:00

whahahahahaha.. arloee everyone.. guess i y so happy? cos papers ocer!!!!!! yeah .. haha.. although itp coming la.. sianz a bit also.. heh heh.. but nbm nbm.. no need to stress bout sch work for now.

ytd had heat transfer. a bit blank out my mind.. i left 2 question blank.. cos duno how to do.. missed out that part when studying.. then long question... i did badly in evaporator section which is my pride in heat transfer.. arghz~~ super sianz.. 20marks think get less than 10 nia.. was very confident bout it b4 the paper.. sianz.. then heat exchanger still ok.. hopefully can get the 20marks..

then after paper was going out to eat with my class de.. then din noe mr. ho coming.. then they were waiting for him till 6.30. then was meeing xiao ben they all to eat at 6.30 also.. i told them i'll be late.. but thinking that class might eat till later.. bout 7.30?? so decided to left there as andre also moving out le.. paisae guys.. hopefully u all enjoyed eating and hope we got another chance to go out.. this time, the whole class ba.. hmm.. after eating with xiao ben they all, went to suntec there walk walk.. xiao sha and xiao gong *jiamin* they all went home cos too tired liaoz.. see they all shagged ah.. shopping and movie for the whole day. haha..

then went to race.. haha. long time din race le.. won 2 times.. then think the person pek chek ah.. went off liaoz.. heh heh.. then me race till 1045.. cos someone's expecting xiao ben.. the day b4 is her bday ma.. then her fren.. came to give her bday pressie.. *think dun reveal whats inside la hor..* heh heh.. then slept in train and walked home with little drizzle.. recently night time like to rain sia. haha..

k la, thats all.. tc guys..

i got the message u sent. how am i suppose to reply u?? sorry for being that cold but, i really felt very very different. hope u can understand.. sorry

2004-11-04T11:48:00.000+08:00

yoyoz. haha.. pasiae last night din update.. was playing RO till forget.. haha =p =x then now i'm here.. heh heh..

ytd had PI paper.. was really quite a easy paper but the last question last part.. q17 f) got 4 sub parts.. all duno how to do.. lost 6 marks. haha =p others hopefully can get some la... then after that went to study with xiao ben and xiao dai.. wha.. xiao ben really bu ben sia.. study till like me *like father like daughter* zou huo ru mo liaoz.. haha.. almost forget time.. then after she went for paer at 6, we cont to study.. and bout 7+.. had good time listening to music and practising heat transfer *my final paper on friday* haha.. think a bit rusty liaoz.. mus practice again.. *later zou huo ru mi again* haah..

then today jus woke up. hehe.. ^_^ later maybe meeting wen ying ah ger to disturb her fren xiao bai *also my ah ger* haha.. k la thats all

XIAO BEN: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~~~~~~

2004-11-01T22:19:00.000+08:00

yoyoz.. finally ah.. haha after 2 days came back to blog le... tiring sia recently *sleep too much become tired* haha.. but still got do revision la.. today's enng maths paper. ahaha.. tricky sia.. but nice one.. think can pass the module. alot o me frens do careless mistakes sia. haha..

then in the early noon went to sch pass xiao ben and xiao sha their hello kitty. then study there too. haha =p then that xiao dai keep on beating me sia.. *ming ku ah..* haha.. VBT *Violent Blood Type* haha.. then went for paper and out..

hmm.. left 1 and 1/2 day to study PI. hopefully that wun be another killer ba.. tc all. jia you wor~~~

2 more to go.. fight fight fight.. dun give up

2004-10-29T22:47:00.000+08:00

yoyoz.. back here again.. haha. morning slept alot sia.. =p till 11+ got lingzhi's phone call that he's going to hospital for checkup.. so accompany him lo.. then afte that went to eastpoint to walk walk.. there really nth to walk sia. haha.. a bit sianz.. hehe.. then take train back home.. slept thru the journey.. sleepy and nice weather to sleep. hehe... hmm.. think thats all for today. *think i lack of exercise la.. me now feeling a bit giddy* take care all.. buaiz

2004-10-28T13:38:00.000+08:00

what a far-king-idiot-lao-ji-bye-bye day sia. had such a foul mood early morning, which spoil my mood for exam for FM. FLUID MECHANICS leh.. what the hell.. the weakest module i had and now, think i gona buang that module liaoz.. most prob forward liaoz la.. morning went to sp mac buy a cup o ice milo.. that auntie din cap it well.. then i have to cap it myself using 1 hand. in the end, the cup play stun with me, break and spill milo all over me.. and its at my jeans some more.. then making it so 'sweet' and foul smelling sia.. what the far-k!!! then went to exam room, totally lost me mind and cool. lost all the info i remembered. *some i din study so bo bianz* but really lo.. some i noe how to do de all i almost forget sia.. totally a failure for this paper.. really fuming in the room, but what can i do right?? hz...

now more of sad than angry liaoz.. changed away my pants and now no more that stupid smell.. feeling better. guess that paper out of 100 wun get more than 40 de.. for sure.. and guess what.. to pass that module, my paper i need to get at least 40 marks.. so what u all think?? *see u next year, mr kon* fu-king hell!!!!!!! suan le... now what i have to do, concentrate on maths, PI and heat transfer liaoz... wasted me 1 semester......

2004-10-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

yoyo.. finally finish 1 paper le.. haha.. but still cant slack. coming paper: fluid mech.. killer to me sia.. haven been study wel for that module.. and tried its past year paper, totally different from tutorials. haha.. think have to 'kill' more past year paper liaoz... tml might not be able to update.. will rest early..

then today got itp briefing. *yay* no need to go on sat le* hehe.. cos teacher say de ma =p.. but think will be quite troublesome.. cos have to do and learn alot at there. then got me security pass today.. hehe.. =p

felt that today time flies slow.. perhaps is cos when doing things, time went slow ba... anyway, felt that i got my own icy me. ahaha. cool cool de.. then study also will zou huo ru mo one. whahahaha but kinda like it alot =p. felt so relaxed..

jas jas sun nu: take good care o urself wor.. sick le.. fever some more.. *sayang* rest more and drink more water k?? bu yao bu ting hua wor..

2004-10-25T23:00:00.000+08:00

arloee.. hehe.. jus before i sleep jus wana update a little.. can say that today is me most hard working day. haha.. tidy up my room and finish a thorough revision on BIA. hehe.. now felt more confident and prepared le.. tml morning paper, so going off le..

jas ajs.. paisae wor.. ah gong bu guai, haven sleep. hehe.. but tml sure will wake up de.. no worry.

is it a blessing in disguise or a unforseen circumstances??

2004-10-24T22:01:00.000+08:00

arloee.. haha.. jus give a short update today.. whole day at home again.. *yay* 4 days in a row sia.. haha =p then also, study a lil too. heh. k la, thats all =p

2004-10-23T22:20:00.000+08:00

yoyoz.. back again.. can say a day had jus passed by me again?? haha =p cos slack at home again.. and i almost lost track of date.. today is friday right?? haha.. =p well.. woke up at noon, chatted awhile then went to study awhile.. in the end, nap nap till evening.. haha.. guess if i din go out, i'll be more tired so still go out better.. =p hm.. k la, nth much to say le.. take care all..

to sp students, the 2nd last weekend we are going to study hard for this semester jia you wor..

jas jas sun nu, thx for accompany me chat online these week.. really glad chatting with u ^_^.

to xue ning *think u might not be seeing this but anyway*, hapy 18th birthday to u. may ur wishes for this coming year come true.. 18th bday, mus celebrate wor.. *think u mus be celebrating now* hehe...

2004-10-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

today.. a gong gong day.. went to tamp there to play game.. after that went to eat n study at starbucks coffee house.. hehe.. then at there saw peishan then had a short chat with her..got to noe that its her mum's bday. hehe.. so good wor.. then after that came home and slack le.. hmm.. a nth much happen day today.. hehe..

2004-10-22T01:04:00.000+08:00

everyone lives in this world has its own purpose
*i noe i said this line b4* haha.. but its something new that i've been enlightened.

in our life, there is bound to be something happy and sad. the root of sadness is caused by devils. they are the one who made u cry, made u feel that life is not worth to move on. but on the other hand, we noe that when there's a devil, there's always an angel by our side. and that angel, is the one, who will listen to u, give u the warmth and if he/she is able to protect u from the harm of devil.we might have little angels around us and countless devils roaming in our lives. but remember, the power of the angels are stronger than the devils cos they are the one, who made u truely smile. making ur heart feel delighted.

the song of the angel is ur laughter
the music of the devil is ur anger

the energy of the angel is ur happiness
the drive of the devil is ur tears

all these are thx to the ppl of cscc whom had the camp connection. where angels and devils are role play characters and there's a thing called the warm fuzzy. its really a very good idea in camps and to me, when they reveal who is their warm fuzzies, i felt that its jus like an angel watching over each other. the moment they stand in a row, its jus like wings are jus behind them.. felt the reason behnd it.. and indeed, in real life, our own angels are frens who care and concerned us. whom listen to our hearts. tuning troubles to laughters. thats a very heart-warming thingy i should say.

ting ah, although i call u devil la.. but hor.. u still an angel to.. hehe.. jus that u this 'angel' can beat me sia.. haha =p k la, till here le.

2004-10-21T01:45:00.000+08:00

jus to say sth here. hehe

i've found back my old good self. hehe.. thx ah, jas sun nu *huggiex*

duno y by jus plain chatting with u i felt that way. perhaps its jus like that ba ^_^.

take care

2004-10-21T01:06:00.000+08:00

hihiz.. back le.. pasiae last night din update.. but actually nth to update la.. haha.. cos whole day slack at home and play game nia. hehe.. thats all for ytd.

then today went back to sch from 9 - 12 pm for maths revision. then study till 2+ then go buy safety boots for ITP. haha.. cost $28 sia.. but worth it la.. metal toe cap.. haha.. meaning i wear that dun make me kick u wor... sure pain till bth de.. haha.. call that wu di xia.. *invincible shoe* haha.. then after that went clubhouse settle something then go eat with xiao ben *zhining ah ger* and xiao sha *teck ming ah ger*. haha.. cos teckming wanted to find shoe at jp. then after that met irene mei then went home le..

think i really learnt my lesson le.. i've been losing everything in me.. from the start of this acad year.... its been a very bad luck year.. i really hope the deja vu really dun happen.. think stop here le..

the silver master is gone... forever...

2004-10-18T18:13:00.000+08:00

yoyoz.. had a sleepy day today. morning got heat transfer.. as usual, sleept thru it.. haha.. but cant sleep longer liaoz cos got PU final test. and was like.. sure fail liaoz lo.. cos 1stly, its very difficult. ask me draw digram which i jus browse thru. haha.. chamz ah.. out of 60, lose 40 marks. haha.. its ICA test some more.. hopefully dun need to repeat that module ba.. really a bit disgraceful sia.. hehe.. hopefully my assignment can pull it up. then went jp race again. haa.. race a little cos miss the feeling of speed. hehe.. then while racing, irene mei msged me saying wanting to tell me personally.. but then i left sch le.. so she say nvm. mei, sorry wor..

then soon after playing headed home and rest le.. hehe.. tired sia.. heng tml no need to go sch.. so can rest at home and do revision. =p then was looking for a new blogskin for a new refresh look. hehe.. then found this le.. hope everyone likes it.. ^_^ take care everyone..

2004-10-17T17:25:00.000+08:00

yoyo ppl. i'm back~~ hehe.. jus came back from cscc camp. hmm.. find that camp quite fun.. although i'm there to help out, but seeing a camp running jus makes me feel good. hehe.. at first was a bit uneasy when 1st day cos not everyone i noe.. and i also a stranger to most of the cs ppl. but was glad that zhi cheng gave me a warm welcome which boosted my morale and more belonged. thx wor.. then in camp was kinda talking more to him and hui zhen. hehe.. although they are stress and tired. then went there also try to talk to other helpers so that not bored ma. haha =p then also played with the yr 1s. get to noe some of them and had chatted with them. hehe. if not go camp not to noe frens and had fun then do what.. hehe..

then during camp, many things happened wor.. example, many are pissed off due to lack of sleep and some ppl irritating them.. *hopefully i'm not 1 of them wor* cos did saw unpleasent faces everywhere on 2nd day.. din wanted to thought much cos i'm jus a small fry there.. so heh.. had a peace of mind at that camp too.. now kinda lighten alot le. thought that somethings are not supposed to be belonged to me.. perhaps is jus a moment of true feeling ba.. cant say here too much... the at there also very tired. hehe.. cos din slept much. then 2nd night got disco, then tired till duno how to dance. lost of beat ah.. haha.. but enjoy the music. hehe.. then they got the idea of ballroom dance. haha.. slow music plays lo.. then they keep saying go find a partner to dance. then after sometime, then got the courage to go find a girl which is opposite to me.. her name is kris. haha. heard from the GPs that she's a good dancer.. then a bit pressurised la. haha.. but heck la.. since eyes on her liaoz.. then go ask lo.. quite ok la.. had quite a pleasent dance. then chatted with her a bit b4 her frens came up and go bath together with them.. then xue nee also came and join us. haha.. *say i pao mei mei.. no hab la.. jus plain chatting la* haha.. then soon morning came and thats the end of the camp.

k la, there's nth more to say le.. but some few messages for the following ppl:

xiao zhu: take care ur leg wor *huggiex*.. can see that u are already very tired le.. then some more injuired. get well soon wor.. and hope u enjoyed the camp.

irene mei: thx thx thx and many many thx in my heart.for everything u did during the camp. really very thoughtful of u.. *huggiex* guess i can never do something so caring as u did.. really felt that i'm jus different. =)

hui zhen: thx for the *chen chee ren* thoughout the camp. haha.. had quite a fun time laughing at my own name =p.

zhi cheng: thx for the welcome and allowing me to help out in the camp.

lester: really thx for 'tagging' with me thru the camp and the help needed during the camp. =)

kris: u are really a good dancer wor.. hehe.. can really see u dance well. and also a bit violent.. mus be careful of u wor... hehe..

2004-10-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

guys and girls.. sry to say i will be MISSING IN ACTION for a few days.. dun have the mood to update. anyway, hope u all are doing well in ur life. i'll be visiting ur blog too.. when i'm ready to be back, i'll be back and fill u guys in.

see you guys soon.

2004-10-12T21:31:00.000+08:00

yoyo.. back again le.. hz.. had a terrible headache now.. think too heaty le ba.. cos noon went play bball =x. then sick a bit some more.. also no drink enough water.. thats y now a bit headache le. hopefully after a sleep it'll be alright.

hmm.. these few days ah.. reached hom quite late. hehe.. cos was waiting for irene mei.. she busy for her camp de thingy.. sect surte busy b4 the camp de.. then waited for her and others to go drink tea.. talk cock there too.. haha.. then monday was actually late for class le.. 8 lesson, 10 wake up.. already missed heat transfer liaoz.. and also missed PU cos no need to go.. but heard that lecturer for HT was on mc, happy sia.. heng ah.. =p. then only went for BIA. kn jeffery whey teach really blur sia.. sometimes i thinking he understand what he talking not. haha.. keep on r epeating the questions sia... rather u pick 1 student to answer la~~.. then from 1 waited till bout 7+?? forget le.. poor memory la.. hehe.. cos recently like drunk like that.. reach home sleep. then forget everything liaoz.. pasiae wor.. hehe.. i'll try to keep here updated everyday. ^_^

to everyone: gd luck to ur exams ^_^

2004-10-08T22:39:00.000+08:00

hmm.. back agains.. not in the mood to update that much.. had BIA quiz today.. 30 mcq. still ok la.. can do. so no prob.. then went club sit sit.. was waiting for irene mei. then went to eat dinner with they all.. hmm then back home le.. thats all..

tot things that i can rely on, are able to be relied.
yet when i want to rely the last time, it fall in me.
can i ever rely again?

2004-10-07T18:56:00.000+08:00

wha.. now still in sch using the comwor.. haha.. 1st time trying * i noe i mountain tortise* haha.. but really la.. quite gd feeling sia =p then seeing other pl working on their projects i here blogging and playing. hehe.. tml BIA test le.. chamz sia.. got to study liaoz later.. using bb. hehe.. hmm. here at t18 with irene, eunice, zhen hui and andrea. hmm. nth to do lo.. they busy their proj i jus guai guai sit here lo. hehe.. hmm. k la, nth to update.. be back at night if i had anything to say. buaiz =p

2004-10-06T23:31:00.000+08:00

yoyoz.. back today.. haha.. 1st thing to say~~ i pon maths tutorial today.. *yay* haha =p 2hrs de.. then went for 1hr de maths lecture.. hehe.. think during the study week, i got to chiong all my module de revision liaoz. haha.. =p then now have the final report to do.. fluid mech. hehe.. find the literature reading can le.. hmm.. k la, nth much.. jus come here say say. hehe.. irene mei, mus take care urself well.. jus now u sms me, i really worry for u sia.. fever till like that.. remember to drink water wor.. ^_^ take care *Speedy recovery*

2004-10-06T13:12:00.000+08:00

arloeez.. finally blogging. haha.. ytd was too tired to blog AGAIN~~ =p but really reached home bout 11+ then bath and slept liaoz.. chamzah.. slept at 1230 and even pon classes sia today. morning 9 lesson, i 11 then reach. haha.. (^oo^) but hz.. kinda sleepy recently.. *like to sleep alot*

then bout ytd, was having prac when irene mei msged me. *mei, i noe u feeling down.. pasiae that only at 2pm then i can come find u* although i pon PI's last lesson la.. haha.. but they were at the rubbish chute near fc5 de.. they were doing MISSION IMPOSSIBLE. haha.. finding eunice's retainers. see the 3 girls *irene mei, eunice and andrea* digging from trashes, me went to help them. haha. can say is a dirty cum happy happening. cos kinda crap over there that the rubbish chute = eunice home. haha.. reason being: she noe where to get the trash bags. haha.. but had a fun time laughing sia..hehe.. they were rushing to find the retainer cos the uncle said that the collector is comming at 2.30.. yet it came at 2.10 which made searching even more hasty. haha.. during the search, asked andrea to take a pic for 'memory' haha.. 1st time doing such things at sch ma.. hehe.. mus remember. =p then eunice was not si xin, then hao hao keep on saying till very 'cruel' ah.. wanting her to stop the search.. hehe.. but also for her gd la.. gone then gone le.. qian, nai shi sheng wai zi wu.. gai hua de jiu hua~ ^_^

then went slack in cscc cos cls no one ma.. then ppl who i noe there, asked me y i go cut botak. haha.. aiyo.. shou chi ji o whatever, jus feel like cutting lo. haha.. *shiok sia, feel the wind passing my head* =p then went back club slack with darren. see he quite ke lian ah... chatted with him awhile. then yong sheng came by.. was been updated bout the 3 on 3 bball challenge. aiyo.. din get the chance to go play. nbm nbm. hehe.. nxt yr zai lai. hehe.. soon, gone off with irene mei and hao hao zhen hui. on the way to station, saw xiao zhu behind us.. i kinda slow down me steps but she walk even slower sia *-__-* haha.. nbm la.. then saw her at station.. chatted with her awhile then went off liaoz.. go there play again *OPPX* but kinda wanting to play lo.. jus nth to do.. no race, no life =x then while was playing my last rd, irene mei suddenly made a request. ask me play the track driver's delight. haha.. was kinda shocked tio but still play the track lo.. cos i also wanted to listen. hehe.. *hope u enjoy listening the track* then went la teh with them till bout 8?? cant recall the time le.. then chat with mei at her hse there till 9 cos waiting for lingzhi to come ah.. hehe.. played again at there.. hehe. then went home le..

kinda tired ytd.. but had a fulfilling time. hehe.. time to study le.. exams coming. gd luck to all who are having quizzes and to all having exams, gd luck too wor..

decoration for the dement

2004-10-04T18:56:00.000+08:00

the reason we are born as human on earth,
is because we had done so much good deeds in our past lives.
to have what we had now, we should treasure it.
to know who we had known now, we should cherish it.
to get whatever things we had now, we should appreciate it.
because if we do not do it now, we might not know when will we regret.
to lose what you had now,
to forget who you known,
to lose things that are important in your life,
it is painful to the heart and mind.

thats why i do not want to do things that i might regret.
yet still, i will still think back and regret. why?
that is our concisious. we live not only for ourselves,
but also for the people who are around us.
that is why the importance of a friend cannot be overlooked.
to be in a person's past, might hurt one alot.
for me, let me be a part of your future.
to live without regret.

2004-10-04T18:34:00.000+08:00

hihiz.. back back again as i promised.. but with shorter things to say. hehe.. after sch went JP find keychain. haha. in the end, din have the model i wanted *rx-7* but got one o my fave *s-15* haha. so went back to westmall to buy. quite nice la..

then b4 going over jp saw xiao zhu.. hehe.. had a short chat with her while on the way to station. then she was waiting for her fren so accompany her awhile *actually is the train jus left then got some mins to wait ma =p* haha.. then when bout 2min, told her i go off first liaoz. =p of cos went there sure will play de la.. *oppx did i say i wana control??? chamz chamz* haha.. but was really wanted to run my 'heart' out so played 5 rnds. hehe.. made a new record.

o.. okok. enough o that.. then went for hair cut. hehe =p when reach home, mama din notice my new hairstyle till i wonder in front o her then she saw. was been asked what happen sia. haha =p but jus feel like cutting till like that then like that lo. hehe.. tml u guys will get to see me new hair le. hehe... k la, thats all. gtg do work liaoz.. buaiz.. take care ^_^

NEW : The Wangan Honorable created a new course record at New Belt Line of 4'34"005.
i see the speed, i feel the speed.
just like holding a double-edged knife.
just pure thrill and adrenaline.

2004-10-04T11:48:00.000+08:00

ytd was tired to update. so did it today at t4 com lab.

went to celebrate lingzhi and zongwei's bday. *be-earlied* de. hehe wanted to give them surprise but yet, they still get to noe. haha.. anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U ALL WOR. hehe. then went to jp race again.. was kinda sha sha de racing. keep on making mistake. think now will xia ding jue xin to reduce racing it le.. really spending alot o my $$. *thx for all who concerned me bout playing my money away*

been really moody these days. duno y.. too tired again?? but indeed din slept much these days. hz.. din had much things to update. really became the past of me *the silent me*

i will always be there, don't worry. gtg lesson le.. update at night ba.. buaiz

until the excitement cools down, i will never stop running.

2004-10-03T03:06:00.000+08:00

wu... a few days din blog again.. haha.. kinda sliped off mind when me began to be tired. haha.. cannot cannot.. unhealthy =p. mus try to update everyday.

hmm, jus came back home from movie. resident evil. haha.. as many ppl said, really a 2 star rating movie, really ought to deserve it sia.. but the story is what i really wanted to noe. guess it skipped the resident evil 2 *game* de part ba.. then straight to RE3. then was laughing thru out the whole movie for really not much reason ba.. haha.. think sure got cont for RE. see the alice, really power sia. haha.. *guys, mus catch for RE part 3* then also soon is lingzhi's bday le.. first here wish u happy 21st bday. hehe.. tml celebrating with him.. then today morning had test. was a bit late but still finish early. haha.. hopefully can pass la hor =p. then not alot o thingy to say today cos nth much really happened. hehe.. was actually wanted to ask irene mei out to watch with us too.. but she was out at kallang with hao hao jj they all.. then bo bian lo.. hehe =p but still, she, jj and zhen hui met me at JP mac. hehe.. had a short chat with them although they were tired.. asked them go home take good rest. hehe =p hmm... hope u too resting well ba ^_^. k la, go rest le.. tml might be a long day too.. buaiz and t ake care all.

the soundtrack, keeps playng in my mind
no matter how its been 'covered' by other music.
once i recall it, just make me feel so close, so innocent.
just like the first day we know each other.