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Wednesday, July 06, 2005

hihi. hmmm been quite a up person today. felt that i had totally jumble up my priorities. frens and love. one side is good frens who had accompany thru the period of loneliness. one side is someone who i found, who i felt like home, who i felt to live with. although used to felt very flirt, but maybe is cos i duno how to differentiate with wat is frenship and relationship.

then now, i somehow din juggle well. after some while and some words from cindy, jus wan say sth.

mini bro, i'm really sorry. was thinking of giving u and cindy a surprise but luckily i din. if not guess i really bring myself big trouble. good frens are the one who will noe me inside out. i really shouldn't have and 'surprises' for u guys. while we should work out new 'surprises'. i really glad that u 2 are my very good frens in my life. i really shared my heart out with u 2 and there u are consoling me, moulding a new me as the time goes by. although we din noe each other for long, but, the bond, is really something that i dun wan to lose. now that i found someone i really love and care, i too dun wish to lose u 2. while morever to share with u 2. cos my happiness is not credited to me alone. its her and also 2 of u. also glad that u 2 had helped me to change over slowly. from appearance to human relation. the gratitude in me, i can never put it in words. gen bu yong shuo yong shuo de. therefore, here wat i wrote, its truely wat i felt. my words of expression is really bad, but i really hope u will give me the chance to be very good frens with u. i dun wan to lose good frens around me again le. i dun wan to be wat i used to be: in a space of loneliness. to see u angry i also dun feel good. but i noe i cant always make u smile. but deep in me, i still wish u that u will always smile happily as u are really influencial. this time i tio hood super hard liao. i dun mind u hood me again in me but jus hope, we will always be best frens.

lijun, duno will u read this. but jus wan tell u this. although u are busy with ur work, but really after some time, i felt that somehow i drifted away from u. although maybe we still can chat and all, but for me dreams are still dreams. it can never be same as reality. yes i once told u that u are my dream girl. its true. but somehow, jus felt that we jus dun have the chance and fate. i cannot go against will of god. i jus cant push luck. but i really glad that in my life, i've noe u as a fren, a fren who i can share my heart too. wish u too can be my best fren. i pray for u one day, u will meet ur prince charming. believe in urself.

piglet, i decided to write all these here is cos i really wan to get thru all the thinking i got inside me. i noe u noe that i once woo after lijun but to me, now u are my special one. trust me. although we noe each other for only few days, but u really made me feel different. from the 1st time i chat with u, we can chat very well and had much to chat also. but in me, jus felt that i wanted to do something more for u. to care for u. but i noe u and me jus need some time to get to understand each other more. so i'll be waiting for u and be by ur side, jus like my best frens. cos couples are best frens with chemistry and affections right? ^_^ but i really thank god, for making me crossing ur path of life, to meet someone pleasent and caring like u. and also look like 'hebe' de u. hehe =p

finally got all the things in me out. to me, everyone by my side are important. especially to those who shared my joy and sorrows. cos without u all, i will never be moving in life. without u all, my eyes will not open jus to live my life. without u all, i will never be wat i am now and in future. maybe these words i said might be too early, but its me. the hide-less me. i dun wan regret one day that i din say these out to u all. especially my best frens, cindy and mini bro peilin.

[ `feel the passion' ] at 9:33 PM

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

hihi. haha. today was a wonderful day. heh heh. lesson time was as per normal. but it was after sch which was fun. haha. went out with piglet *u noe who u are =p* after sch to walk walk 'tan xin shi' haha. can say we had quite a chatting session ba. the moment we met till we depart, we never stop chatting. haha. its really wonderful to chat with her especially when everything is under the sun. hmm. but do i really sound like i hit off very easily with girls? maybe ba. but i now also trying to find guys de frens. as some time, need to balance out things in life ma. hehe. went to PS. was intending to catch a movie but all was left are the front sitters. so~~ never mind. thanks~~. hahaha.

then went to took some photos and the machine's effect was really nice. hehe * next time patronize that machine le ba* hahaha. think long time no take le * o should say choose the machine to take ba* then a bit mountain tortise ah. haha. but in the end after some 'designing' by us, the pics did came out nice nice. hehe. then went for dinner at the foodcourt and thats the end for today. haha. at 1st was wanting to play but forget today's youth day, arcade FULL HOUSE. haha. super lot o racer ah. no chance to play. hahaha. so bo bianz lo. hehe. hmm. should say today was one of the enjoyable moments i have in my life. can never forget it ^_^ (4 / 7 / 2005)

a special day
where for the first time
i felt a true mix in emotion.
for fate brings me you
for chance brings me her
for time i shall see
will fate seals my destiny
or
will chance befall over me

[ `feel the passion' ] at 12:36 AM

Sunday, July 03, 2005

wha. today had quite a day too. went to downtown east there for a job application. now have to wait for call for interview. duno will have the job not. then after that went to somerset meet cindy and peilin. soon peilin's bf came and 4 o us went walk walk. then went to this levi's shop and they asked me tried a pair of jeans. haha. very nice la. price also very nice lo. $119. haha. super ex sia. but really very nice. think need to change my waredrobe le ba. haha.

then went fo tang for the huan ying hui. was late but its ok. everything end at 10+. then here i am. end of day le. haha. k la. think nth much le. go off le. see ya.

had you in mind all these while
missing you badly
wonder how are you really doing now?
wish i had more time with you
to see you smile.

[ `feel the passion' ] at 12:16 AM

Monday, June 27, 2005

hihi
haha. had been some time since i blogged again. haha. ytd and today had a long day. can say been enjoying although tired ba, but it had been meaningful for ytd.

went to a tour on our origin of the religion, on how it started and how our masters fought to spread the good word in singapore. they had been thru much hardship and is away from home. really touching story on wat they been thru. its sth miraculous and hard to say. then really been 'enlightened' by some things ytd. also duno how been enlighten but feel light today. haha

then today had EIC my so call fave module ba. its when we learn bout ourselves. haha. its always interest me alot. had a short private conversation with the teacher and known sth about relationship and frenship. understand somethings that i think i neglected.

hmm. anyway, jus feel lighted these 2 days. hope everyone also enjoying their life too. life is fun. hope all take care. time will fly for all. ^_^

felt something different in me.
everytime there's only one thing in my mind.
can i realise what i have in my mind?

[ `feel the passion' ] at 11:55 PM

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

when changes are not done well enough, things haven't change for the better
for past we cannot change anymore, for thinking cannot be changed
only the future we can mould, to make ourselves a better life.

had been through some counselling session today with my fren. been thinking that some things i did unknowingly hurt o strained the relationship around me. can see somethings are not the same while some things are changing for the better. had been noeing wat to do but my fren told me that i got to put in more effort. and also somethings if we over do, it might turn out side effect.

if being quiet is something wrong
then can someone please make me speak?
to tarnish people's life and not helping them to stand
its the great sin to create.
i wish i had never do such things in my life
because being tarnished by people is not funny.
for their pride and confidence will be brought down
just like a note shredded into pieces
no matter how you put them together
their pain can never be hidden.

[ `feel the passion' ] at 12:16 AM

Friday, June 17, 2005

hi guys. haha. was supposingly to update ytd but fell asleep le. hahaa. totally forget wat i wanted to do. hee. hmm yup. had a very fun day ytd. fun time laughing and playing.

scene: t3a toilet
victim(s): lao zhang, david G., ah lau.
happening:

lao zhang was poo-ing in toilet and all o us decided to play him out. 1stly is splashing water to him. then try sth more exciting. wet toilet paper. haha. almost hit him though. guess in there he dun have a good time poo-ing ba. haha. then my fren asked me to use his hp to take photo of lao zhang poo-ing. so decided to try. but cannot catch his view. hahaha. then here comes david with ah lau's hp. trying to take photo up front of him in the cubical. the moment david raise the hp above the door and going to press the 'capture' button, it was gone. snatched by lao zhang. and there goes ah lau's hp. haha. then they make a big fuss by kicking the door. until the door spoiled O_O spoiled in sense it cannot lock liao. hahaha. then as u guys noe lao zhang haven wash his hands right? therefore it 'dirt' ah lau's hp and so now, is hp is called' the sai hp' hahaha. stupid eh? but had much fun. haha.

then after sch went to help in the interviewing thingy. at t1 there. got ard 20 ppl signing up for mc post. then we decided to play games with them starting from intro game. slowly we plaed more game as time pass by. haha. had much fun playing too. and get to noe more yr1s that din come for the FO activities. haha. was a very fulfilling day. ^_^

[ `feel the passion' ] at 10:35 AM

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

yoyo. finally after sometime, i blogged. haha. hz.. feeling terrible. sick le wor. alot of ppl around me also down le. hz.. so chamz ah. then proj started le. need to think alot and also class. then world start to move fast. tempo starts to build. and also long time no do my fave. racing. hahaha. then club having recruitment drive tml. guess will go there to listen ba. hope things will be alright. may 05/06 be a good yr for cls. ^_^

[ `feel the passion' ] at 11:06 PM